The person who is telling the story has a good way of expressing their sorrow and angst. Truly, if the creator and them are the same person, to be able to walk away from something like that must have been hard. It's always hard to walk away when the people you like are doing something bad, but if you couldn't trust them, if they had forced you, could you have really lived with yourself? Honestly, I don't think so. I glad a metaphor, was enough. god bless, peace.