If I had known such thoughts were as unique and exceptional as you've proven them to be, I would have had more confidence in myself long ago. I'm much more interesting than I thought I was, it's just that we as people tend to be afraid to show this side of us.
I'm grateful you took the time to share with us some of your experiences. It's obvious these were life-defining for you, and I feel as if I know you somehow. Good luck.