I went to church for the first time 2008-08-03 20:45:49
Today I went to a chinese christian church for the first time in years. The reason being, is that I am an atheist and don't believe in another particular religion.
So some chinese people borrow the church from the other people that use it, and they have their own session at around 2 o'clock. Thus, everyone there is chinese.
As luck would have it, all the other people that were supposed to be in my class or group or whatever, were at some sort of bible camp. So the instructor and I were the only ones there, and that made it very up close and personal.
We started to read the first chapter in the bible, then the last, and then the second; as a sort of 'introduction' into Christianity. After that hour and 15 minutes, I've learned a lot about the bible, that I didn't know before.
But that doesn't mean that I believed any of it. I just find it very hard to believe in any of that stuff. But after the instructor had that private session with me, we had to say a prayer. And that's just very awkward, you know? I had to repent my sins, etc. etc. I was very uncomfortable.
If I could, I wouldn't want to go to that church again. But because the instructor had been so friendly and willing to teach me, I don't want to let her down by not going.
I'm having a lot of mixed feelings about this. Any advice?