At 11/23/10 04:25 PM, Scarface wrote:
At 11/23/10 02:38 PM, Painbringer wrote:
I did, however, play with one of my bro's friends in '98 and '99, but he was from another school, and both times were during the summer. No sex though.Oh. Still, I wish I had a boyfriend....
Aww I'll be.
Also "only 2 threesomes" Most of us have never had 1 and you brush 2 off!!!
Also, about the loneliness in closet thing, it is a bit annoying, but then again there is more the issue of knowing for sure what you are etc before you end up coming out, then again not being able to be with someone when your thinking about if you are really gay etc isn't to helpful to be honest. How do you know if you are or not if can't test it sigh.
I've had 1 relationship myself since I came out, well 1 as a whole didn't have any before. It was good but when it ended it was really bad, not used to that still effects me a bit as well as the obvious emotional problems it kind of rose the question of am I actually really shit as a boyfriend or can I not give pleasure or something else bad, will never know I guess and just have to hope not.
To the thing of dating websites and that gay.com etc, I don't know but I don't really feel comftable with those sort of things. I have that constant thought that instead of getting a relationship just get someone who wants to fuck me once then fuck of or something, I'm much more of the relationship type so have that constant dread of trying sites.
Also the coming out thing, after keeping it in for a few months after I came to grips with it with help from NG people, seriously NG is surprisingly good at things like that...but anyway eventually when I was in the middle of hating myself I came out to my mother, who gladly is fine with it, my father on the other hand would probably beat me to death or something so I made the point of never being near him again. Sadly unlike NG and mother the school, despite being the 16-19 age bracket were all immature twats and couldn't seem to accept it, I guess its a good thing to find out which "friends" aren't good to have though when you let a few would be close friends know about your sex only to have them go behind your back and tell everyone and never talk to you nicely again...
I guess it's just that it was in a small town, people around such a place couldn't seem to understand that people can be different. Oh and of course my work, like hell I'm ever letting anyone there know I'm gay I'd be fired instantly as a heathen. So all in all my coming out hasn't exactly treated me well.
Oh also finally lost chances, sucks to be removed just for finding something funny. Are gay people not allowed to find anti gay things funny then? I was never aware of that.