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I have here in my hands..

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I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:09:07


Two little bottles filled with Estrofem and Spironolactone.

If I take them, over the next few months, I inevitably will lose my ability to achieve an erection, and start to generically look more female. I'll never have children again, and I'll probrably never be as competitive or aggressive again. (There's a lot more to it but I don't really feel like explaining.)

Since most of you already know my life intimately since I've cried so much about it, you can guess why I would be taking these buggers.

Given you were in my situation, what would you do? I've personally already made up my mind.

For God's sake if you're just going to post "FAGGOT", do it in another topic.
I'm aware most of you hate me for being a disgusting twisted fucked up crossdressing faggot, but hell, who are you to judge, you're on Newgrounds, and logically, your fetishes aren't any better.
"The only unnatural sexual desire is none at all."

I've already decided that trolling and spamming was really stupid and to let all my grudges go from this point on.
Yeah, no more pointless trolling or shit, since this place is going to get nuked soon anyway, might as well delay it by cleaning this place up.

I'm trying to change my life from this boring meaninglessness, since I have nothing left to lose.

I guess if you want I'll post weekly or monthly updates when I start taking it.

Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:11:23


I'm new here on Newgrounds, what's the history with you?

Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:11:33


Not gonna lie, that's fucking weird.


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Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:11:55


This is sad

Well i hope life gets better for you...we are all twisted a bit inside but none are as twisted as me

good luck at being more female and hopefully happier in the future
im trying to care
does it even count anymore?

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Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:12:33


do it and post pictures, im actually interested in how itll go for you, I hope it all works out and you can enjoy your new life, more or less


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Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:13:01


At 5/1/08 07:09 PM, DragonsGrief wrote: Given you were in my situation, what would you do?

I wouldn't care so much about my sexual desire

Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:13:34


Dont take them!


You are a dickhead faggot with no life and deserve nothing better than having your throat ripped out and your dead body being raped. Have a nice day though.

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At 5/1/08 07:12 PM, TheLobsterman wrote: do it and post pictures, im actually interested in how itll go for you, I hope it all works out and you can enjoy your new life, more or less

Before : Flat chest
After : Omg B cup

At 5/1/08 07:13 PM, Truth wrote: I wouldn't care so much about my sexual desire

Ironically enough, the pills are going to completely kill my sex drive.

Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:14:34


Take them with beer


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Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:14:51


quite a decision you've made. updates would be nice.


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Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:14:56


Okay I don't know whats going on but I hope it helps you and everything turns out great for you because you deserve it.

Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:16:10


At 5/1/08 07:13 PM, DragonsGrief wrote:
At 5/1/08 07:12 PM, TheLobsterman wrote: do it and post pictures, im actually interested in how itll go for you, I hope it all works out and you can enjoy your new life, more or less
Before : Flat chest
After : Omg B cup

I find flat chested girls to be nicer and more awesome then those with huge ass boobs

At 5/1/08 07:13 PM, Truth wrote: I wouldn't care so much about my sexual desire
Ironically enough, the pills are going to completely kill my sex drive.

Aww thats sad.
Will you be able to have sex still though?


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Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:16:37


Don't do it, your mind is crumbling and your really confused at the moment. From all that furry porn I sorta made the diagnosis that your spiraling somewhat down a sexual spree and are very confused. Please don't take it and ask a therapist or psychiatrist before making any action, it's not because I think your different and odd but it's because I can sense something bad from you.

Either that or this is a joke :P

Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:16:51


At 5/1/08 07:13 PM, Truth wrote:
At 5/1/08 07:09 PM, DragonsGrief wrote: Given you were in my situation, what would you do?
I wouldn't care so much about my sexual desire

Yeah. Seriously, I've once thought of how it would feel to be a dog, but you don't see me taking some pills that will erase my mind and grow fur all over my body. But if this makes you any happier...I suppose you should STOP BEFORE ITS TOO LATE! YOU'LL REGRET THIS FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE! DONT DO IT, PLEASE!!

If you do, post pictures.


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Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:16:52


If I was in your situation, I would only do it if I was really sure that's what I wanted, since there probably wouldn't be any going back.


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whoa art what

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Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:17:00


Yeah, not being able to make sexy time would be depressing.

Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:17:37


couldnt you get a sex change. wouldnt that get rid of your dick completely and give you a vagina?


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Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:18:34


At 5/1/08 07:13 PM, DragonsGrief wrote:
At 5/1/08 07:13 PM, Truth wrote: I wouldn't care so much about my sexual desire
Ironically enough, the pills are going to completely kill my sex drive.

Good. Then you can focus on what's really important in your life.

Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:18:41


You're gonna look back in twenty years, and you're not going to be happy.


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Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:19:43


Just don't do it. You'll be like, half man, half woman. Kind of.

Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:21:46


At 5/1/08 07:14 PM, LegendarySupersaiyan wrote: Take them with beer

Nah, I'm already risking potassium poisoning and excessive internal blood clotting by self medicating.

At 5/1/08 07:14 PM, Brick-top wrote: Okay I don't know whats going on but I hope it helps you and everything turns out great for you because you deserve it.

I hope so too.

At 5/1/08 07:16 PM, shadowchaotailsevil3 wrote: I find flat chested girls to be nicer and more awesome then those with huge ass boobs

Lol.

Will you be able to have sex still though?

If I can even maintain an erection long enough and find the desire to stick it in something, yes.

Some people say their drive is improved after the treatments, who knows. Doesn't matter too much anyway since I'm a bottom faggot and taking it up my ass.

At 5/1/08 07:18 PM, Bolo wrote: You're gonna look back in twenty years, and you're not going to be happy.

I haven't made a decision yet that I didn't regret so far, lol.

Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:22:39


Well see, that's the way to go man. You don't regret anything in your life, and you'll never feel like an asshole like me.

Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:25:06


Personally, I'm very cautious about making decisions with pemenent consquences. I mean, maybe you really should try waiting a while before you make the leap you know?

I know I'm not in your shoes so there is no possible way that I could relate to you on this, but this seems like a permenent solution to a temporary problem.

Maybe you should ask others who did the same thing and see how they feel.


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Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:27:41


At 5/1/08 07:25 PM, TheRadicalOne wrote: Personally, I'm very cautious about making decisions with pemenent consquences. I mean, maybe you really should try waiting a while before you make the leap you know?

I know I'm not in your shoes so there is no possible way that I could relate to you on this, but this seems like a permenent solution to a temporary problem.

Maybe you should ask others who did the same thing and see how they feel.

I've felt this way all my life. I've been thinking about it insistently since I first knew there was a possible way to get even remotely close to the feeling.

I've spoken to others. It's all mixed answers. Some are the same, some became suicidal, some are ecstatically happy.

I chose to delay my decision when I was 12, then 14, I'm 16 now. If I wait any longer I'll stay stuck looking like this.

Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:28:59


Dude,
I've said some shit.
My bad.
Don't do anything stupid to Chuck, Leroy, and Herman (ESPECIALLY HERMAN! >:[)

Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:33:27


dude

pics or it didnt happen

1st post!


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Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:35:42


At 5/1/08 07:27 PM, DragonsGrief wrote: ...If I wait any longer I'll stay stuck looking like this.

Like what? Looking like what?


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Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:37:34


Riiiight...
And we need to now this WHY???


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Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:40:54


At 5/1/08 07:33 PM, pixyX wrote: pics or it didnt happen

I need to break the seal on this package to get to the thing. If I do, I can't return it. I'm waiting for my blood tests to come back next week before taking it.

At 5/1/08 07:35 PM, Lorkas wrote: Like what? Looking like what?

All masculine and like :l

At 5/1/08 07:36 PM, ParadoxSaint wrote: Well, are you going to be comfortable being like this when you're old?

Ask yourself that. Take all the sexual desire away and ask yourself if you still want it, and if it means that much to you, then it might be worth it.

I have about 3 or so months before the effects are permanent. I can simply stop taking them if I don't like it.

I have no idea. I hate planning ahead for the future since it hinders down my immediate selfish desires. I want it so much more than just the sex appeal, but after 10 years of just staring at my ceiling wondering why, I almost forgot the real reason.

Response to I have here in my hands.. 2008-05-01 19:44:07


I don't know what to say. It sounds like you've been thinking on this for a long time now, so it's not a hasty decision. Do it if you truly feel it will make you happy.

I just feel sorry that you can't enjoy the body you already have.


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