At 2/16/09 06:00 PM, Lizzardis wrote:
At 2/16/09 05:43 PM, TailsPrower wrote:
Cheers guys. I know I'm trying to take my mind off it, but i am recently recovering from my father dying in may of 2007. Damn it's almost 2 years and the hole in my heart still will not heal. Now i have another one.
At 2/16/09 05:01 PM, Lizzardis wrote:
They have pulled it Cobra.My regards to you and your family. I hope you find solace in knowing that she'll never have to suffer again and is now at peace. It's always a difficult choice, I'm glad you felt it was the right thing to do. I think so too.
On a sad note i would like to share with you guys.
My dog has unfortunately passed away after having to have her put to sleep. She burst her bladder in august '08 and throughout the weekend she struggled to urinate. She was in pain but i knew it was the right thing. I loved her and it was the best thing i could do.
R.I.P Rolo. ~~~Born: The year 1999 - Died: 16th Fed 2009~~~
I'll be honest with you guys.....I have thought my life is that crap that ending it would be the only option. I sometimes think that i am put on this earth to be tested. I sometimes think i am the only one suffering.
I sometimes think that life goes on without anyone giving a flying fuck about what i am going through.
My life is a ton of shit, i smile to make everyone think I'm OK. Little do they know behind the smiles, is a guy who's heart will never heal and yet can not do such things as to end his own life because of the likes of his mother and family around him.
I love every single family member i have. I look at them and think that they will be here forever. I know now....that they will not.
Nothing is here forever. But while i am on this earth i shall grasp life in my bare hands and beat back those curveballs it gives me with a metal bat. I shall rise above all of this death, because i now no-longer fear death, as i have had my fair share of looking at it.
I will do my father and my dog proud by not lying down and giving into life's every demand, i will do what they and myself wanted me to do.
I will see my own way in life and do them proud.
Sorry for saying this i got carried away. Yeah my life is a ton of crap, but atop of that crap is me, and may i just say....I'm as clean as a whistle!
wow, talk about a shitty life thus far. But, trust me Mike, you haven't seen the worst that life has to offer you. I on the other hand, have. To make a long, long, long ass story EXTREMELY SHORT, I'll provide a list of the shit I have seen and when it occurred.
1995: My granddad (dad's side) died of a heart attack when I was 5
1996: My grandma (dad's side) died of breast cancer when I was 6
1998: My granny (mom's side) died of Parkinson's when I was 8
12/12/02 @ 6:30 AM: My house burns down due to a horrible ice storm here in Durham, NC. We had been using the woodstove in the basement to heat the house at night and the fireplace in the living room to heat the house and cook our food during the day. My brother and I had been sleeping in the living room. I couldn't breathe, I got up, went outside my brother was outside with my mom's dog. My parents heard me yelling, they fell down the steps. There was a light in the basement, I told my dad about it, we went running down there, the carpet was on fire. The ducting from the woodstove had caught fire and was smoldering for hours on end. My parents, brother, myself, my mom's dog, my brother's dog, and our cat all survived, but our chinchillas did not.
Mother's Day 2005: my mom's German Shepard, Treysa died.
June 2005: My pawpaw (mom's side) died, I didn't really care, he was an asshole to say the least.
But, yea, I do know how you feel Mike. Comparatively speaking, you've gotten the lighter side of death. I've been to Hell and back. Granted I still have both parents and I am not rubbing that in your face, I just know how it feels to lose someone/a pet/or something near and dear to you.
My sincerest condolences.