At 12/5/18 12:03 PM, MagtiraPaolo wrote:
I lost all my dreams and it's just overwhelming that all of these things about my art career and other things are going too fast. I know people who'll be disappointed at me having this mindset especially because they say I've "achieved" things on the field. However I just can't find a way to feel happy for myself and what I've accomplished so far since I feel like I'll always be pretending. I'm still holding out that someday I'll get over this.
Since we're sharing stories... I had a period similar to this. Once I left college, I felt like I had no-one to prove myself to anymore. The more people told me my art was great, the less I enjoyed making it. Even if I knew that I could improve much, much more, there was just no more reason for me to do it. At first I brushed it off as if it was just temporary blues, but after a while, I came to terms that it's a very real, painful and especially lonely step in life.
Eventually, I started thinking why I make art to begin with and reorganized. I decided to just casually make small art-pieces without uploading or showing anyone for myself, whilst sticking actual energy in my work as audiovisual artist. It honestly makes me much happier, even if I have little to show for it.
Being an artist isn't more important than your happiness, no matter what social media or art teachers tell you. Also, cut out any negative voices in your life, focus on what gives you hope or keeps you high. Hope this helps a little, it works for me.