So, this is it. This here marks my 10 000th post on Newgrounds.
Is it a big deal? If so, is it that big a deal? Or is it more so just for my own ego?
Is it actually a signifying factor of how much time I've wasted here, in this place?
Or is it something more?
Does it signify the amount of maturity and growth over the years present?
Does it account to all of the friendships I've made over the time on this forum?
All the friends that have come into my life here in this place?
These friends, these users, these art forum regulars, who are they?
So many names, usernames and real, have come by this place.
They've come, and they've gone, moved on to different things.
And yet I'm still here, waiting and watching, a stone gargoyle on a building.
I've seen the forum in it's most grand moments, and I've seen it at it's uttermost shit.
And I just sit in the shadows, and wonder what the hell.
I've thought of leaving this place as so many before me have done, and yet I haven't.
Why? Why am I still here?
Is it because I've become so used to this place that I'd feel empty without it?
Is it because I still have hope for the forum becoming like it once was?
Is it because of the emotional ties to friends I've made here over the years?
I don't know, and yet I am still here, day by day, watching this place like a silent guardian.
So I sit, and I watch, and I wait, and all the while the world moves around me.
No, this isn't me saying that I'm leaving, or taking an extended hiatus.
This is more of a philosophical thought spoken aloud over the past thousands of posts here.
I've been in this art forum for close to 5 years now, and I know there are many who have been here longer.
I don't know, these are just the ramblings of a single man, caught up in his thoughts.
I'm not better than any of you, and I'm not wiser than any of you, I'm just here.
Just here waiting, and watching, day by day.
But I'll stay, and watch over this place, taking care of the shit that comes in. Like a protector of this place.
I'm no hero, but truth be told, you need me.
Whether you like it or not.
10 000th post, here's to a few more.