Response to Relationship Crew 2008-03-22 02:12:33
At 3/21/08 06:54 PM, CTM222 wrote: This is what I mean by seeking help. This is really worrying if you really felt like this. I dont specifically remember what happened to make me feel stuff again but if I did, I promise I would have said by now. I know its hard but maybe a fresh start with everything. Try not to bottle it, it sounds like you are caging emotion. Every seen the film or read the book "Fight Club"? Because it seems to me that that is very similar to what you are going through.
So what? It's bad to have realistic dreams? I'll just tell you about the dream. Part of it is weird, so... if you need a reason for why I was dreaming about some of it, just tell me. So here we go.
I'm in my house... and some dude is there with a huge fuckin nazi flag telling me how he wants to kill blacks and shit. And I'm trying to make him see the lighter side of shit and get of his peckerwood bullshit. Well, I just got snubbed. Then I think the dream skipped cuz my mom walked in and I was in a different room in a little blue chair. My mom said 'You have a visitor' When I looked up, Ember was standing there. She said sorry and kissed me ever so passionately. I could feel the tingling in my heart. the vibrant feel of everything... it felt so good. And then I woke up. I almost called ember to say I was happy we were okay... but then I realized... I was awake... and it was just a dream. If I was insane, I would have died because of how pissed I was at myself...