At 5/5/17 12:31 PM, dilandoubishop wrote:
Perhaps, 11 years is a lot of experience. Most of the arts need an incredible amount of skill and experience. And a mind that can think that way, to imagine that way. Your situation may not stem from failure. Perhaps a lack of opportunity or spotlight. We have to understand that we have brethren...a whole lot of brothers and sisters doing what we are doing but also fighting for a spot. We can be gracious and let them get that spot or...we can wait in line with the rest of em. There is also the possibility of making your own path. The choice is in your hands.
Even with music it's the same, but at least people can sorta kinda hear, in addition to seeing, the expression that goes into it. And while I admit I am more of a musician than a visual artist, not having any kind of break for 11 years in visual art only gives me evidence that I am a bad artist, rather than a good one. It only reinforces bad, rather than good.
Perhaps a lack of opportunity or spotlight.
That sentence, or the essence thereof, keeps coming back to me.
I've been drawing for longer, but I say "11 years" because that was from which point I knew I would never get a break however hard I tried. Ending up last place in a competition with ten consolation prizes and three top places (there were only fourteen of us taking part) made me the subject of all sorts of abuse by parents and friends, something which I have never really recovered from. They say confidence comes from within, but if the means of gaining that confidence is severely impaired, what then? Until I heal (which might be never at this rate), I need a crutch, I need to lean on others' support.
If I made my own path, I think it ideal -- I just don't know what to do to even start on it.