Response to Writing Forum Lounge 2012-12-04 21:15:09
At 12/4/12 10:56 AM, Deathcon7 wrote: ...
Man. It's been about 2 years since I joined NG. I too wanted to animate out of my love for animation but could never find the time or resources. That's the same thing that drew me to the Writing Forum. Love! (Lame, I know.)
I love literature and I love writing. I love reading too, but I feel like my attention span has diminished over time (the last book I read all the way was A Clockwork Orange, like 1 year ago. I've tried to read Candide, Walden, Cosmos, The Origins of Species, and even shorter works like Nightfall (the collection), and A Room of One's Own, but I keep putting them down...).
What's keeping me on the Writing Forum? I mean, my time is much better devoted to reading literature I know to be damn good. The main thing, I suppose, is ego. I feel that I am pretty good at recognizing weakness in a story, and I get a certain ego boost reviewing someone's story and telling them what worked and what didn't. I like being an "elite" regular, if you will. Then of course, there is respect for the craft and trying to educate others while also learning from others. There's loyalty to the Writing Forum (I have little-to-no loyalty to NG; I like Tom and respect him, but this place is an intellectual wasteland. Call me elitist, pompous, delusional, or whatever, but this place is full of intellectual inferiors). There's boredom. And, there's a chance to help others, which is probably the one I like best.
In regards to faith, I too find myself slipping. I pride myself in patience and rationality, but my mettle has been pretty weak as of late. I'm bitter and disillusioned and a bit smug. I've always had a bitter dislike of general and I'll never pass an opportunity to speak ill of them (if anyone would like to defend them, go ahead. I've got nothin' but time, baby). But, the Writing Forum has always been different, and will always be different. Even though some of the people who trickle operate under my standard of "intelligent" (which is extremely objective, but I still consider to be reasonable) they are more rounded and intelligent than most people on the Internet, and I respect them. And, I have a deep respect for characters such as yourself, mhzinski, starwars, 4, Ekublai, Coop, and Brian and ZeeAk. My faith in the Writing Forum resides in people such as ourselves. Without this strong core, this forum is just as inane and pointless as the rest.
Without that, my faith in this place is as good as dead as Dillinger. I'm not sure if staying here is worth it--you're right; it's more of a loose forum for us regulars. Without the Writing Forum, nothing really changes, especially if we stay in touch. But, you have been the one pillar since I've been here. I've grown as a writer and as a person, and I've grown wiser, too. I do consider myself another pillar of the Writing Forum (I think about 730 of my posts are in the Writing Forum, much more than anybody else). Really, the only two "regulars" are yourself and I. Without us, the Writing Forum would devolve into a waste.
In the end, that's sort of my final reason. I have a somewhat misplaced obligation or duty to keep this place alive, to make sure that the standard here never drops to that of General. If you leave, it will be a grand shame. But, I will always be here, parting wisdom and injecting intellect wherever I can. The Writing Forum is a safe haven for me to be smart and speak honestly and somewhat loftily. I'm sure many of you can sympathize with me: we are too smart for our own good. I'm used to being the smartest person in the room. When someone says something stupid, or incorrect, I want to yell in their face to pick up a fucking book and study; if you want to watch television, watch something educational or worthwhile; same thing with music. Again, it may be ego, or delusion, but I guess it's the truth.
That's my rant. I have feeling that this isn't the end, though. If it is, good luck, my friend, and peace.
Giving out writing reviews to anyone who wants them (exception: poems. I'll find you).