At 4/1/11 01:12 AM, Spac3case916 wrote:
A couple of my close friends have left for the navy. One of them says that he's never coming back.
And our circle of friends is breaking apart.
Im making new friends but this feels like cheating.
Like Im cheating on my friends.
I too have always felt that growing up is the hardest thing to do. I look at so many of my old buddies, my friends from High school and the more recent college eras of my life, and it's so strange to see the moving on, It's like I'm spinning in neutral. But I noticed that I too have changed. I am not the same person I was what seems so long ago. But I'm not so sure I have changed in the same way that they have. My friends have gotten married, started having kids, found their places that they want to be in the world, and here I am, still holding a pencil and dreams with a grip of a dead man.
Perhaps I haven't changed after all, and perhaps that makes me pitiful. Like a kid that can't grow in to the man he needs to be. Or maybe I have, and maybe that is too just as saddening that I have grown alone, and have grown accustom that solitude.
I think I'll favorite this.