Learned a life lesson (kinda)
Haven't posted in a while due to my exams. Finally I'm done and the results are pretty good, though I could've performed a tad better ;(
But anyway, I have a short story to tell. My classmates and I were celebrating yesterday the end of our last year of school. There was a lot of booze and I've drunk more than I should've, I guess. To cut it short, I had a disagreement with a certain dude I have never really liked and at some point something just clicked and I ran at him and threw him a few punches in the face. He retaliated with a punch to my glasses which snapped and I got a cut on my eyebrow. With a bleeding face I get held back by other people, in rage and all that jazz. The guy started to exit the flat (I was hosting the whole thing at my place) and I got loose and ran over outside and slammed him right into a box with a fire extinguisher which was hanging on the wall. Then I nearly got beaten by some other lad, who was holding me back again.
In the end, we apologized to each other, though he didn't even try recognizing that he was wrong, despite one of the people pointing it out. But still, I felt guilt, because everyone was looking with judgement at me. Almost all of my classmates sympathize him, in one way or another. Nevertheless I still felt as if I was the right one in this fight, but everybody else thought I was a total asshole. Maybe. Throwing fists as an argument isn't the best thing to do, eh.
All I can say, is that all these years, this dude annoyed me for many reasons. I've always thought of him as a ratty type of person, the kind which can easily betray you. And on certain occasions, I was right. People, however, forgot quickly about these things.
But when I think about it now, I shouldn't really care about him and his actions, as long as they don't directly affect me. It's my mentality that is the issue - I can't sit still, when somebody is acting the wrong way. Or maybe he's doing everything right and it's me, who has a twisted view on things.
The bottom line is, that I think I've learned something today. To do my own thing and tune down the "give a shit about people around" knob. At least that's how I feel at the moment. What I've done wasn't worth a damn, walking away and not starting a fight - that would've been the right choice.
Sorry for the long post, but I had to let it out.
TLDR got into and fight and shiet, plz read for more detailz, i think i learned something