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This was a very quick piano improv that I did for 21 Days of VGM, on its ninth day (9 April 2020). On that day I asked @Xinxinix to give me a prompt, and he came up with "Heavy."

He did this knowing full well that I make some of my best art about heavy subject matter, and this one was no exception. Anyone who knows me knows that I have plenty of heavy subject matter to draw from. This one, in particular, was dedicated to Anton, the brother I never had, who lived for only 45 minutes on 17 April 1995.

I did this in two takes, one for the lower register and one for the upper. Mistakes be damned. This was me pouring my heart out on that day, wondering how different things might have been. All the could-haves, would-haves and should-haves in the world will not change the fact that I never ever got the chance to see him, and that the only proof of his existence is that somewhere, halfway across the seas, is a niche where his ashes have been interred.

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That's really a sad story behind this. It actually reminds me how Aphex Twin came up with the "twin" part in his artist name because of the twin he never had which didn't make it living into this world.

A very nice piece with a lot of emotion into it.

And when I say "IF ONLY I DIDN'T HAD THIS BRO HOW MUCH THE HECK I HAT HIM" and the same with all my other siblings... Your story made me happy, because I have them. Thanks. And nice song!!! -A Troubled Hat

I don't have much to say other than, well... Damn. I felt that. I felt the emotions flowing through each note, every key that was played. It's clear where your heart and mind were during these brief two minutes, and it flowed out beautifully, in a percussive symphony of audible sorrow.

It feels like I'm slowly sinking with all the peace of mind
Ps:It was beautiful and I wish you the best successes in your next projects

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4.91 / 5.00

Apr 25, 2020
7:37 PM EDT
File Info
2.3 MB
2 min 1 sec
  • FL Studio 11
Misc. Kit
  • Fruity Soundfont Player

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