Been dealing with a grieving partner for the last few months. Her mother suddenly passed away last September and her grandmother passed away a few weeks ago from today. She's been a wreck and I've been doing my best to be the pillar of support, though I am also grieving for the losses.

The amount of stuff one inherits from the recently deceased can be overwhelming. Especially if they came from the generations of scarcity and saving. We can't fit any more antiques into our house and noone wants them.

Things have been heavy and sad lately, both due to the passings but also from the isolation from not being able to participate in the world around us due to emotional overload, draining us of any energy we would have had. Thoughts become harder to bring up because all you want to do is cry, but can't because the tears ran out a long time ago, leaving you with a mind-numbing headache. Whats worse is we were historically the ones our friends would lean on when they couldn't get their shit together.

It helps to have music to zone out to. To attain a headspace of nothing, to ease yourself from the weight of the world by attaining a state of nothingness, lost in sound. To forget yourself, so you can reset back to equilibrium.

I found myself lost making this and I may expand on it more later (had a synthy part with a echoing gate that i wanted to add to the end, but the inspiration was lacking on where to go with it)