-Words by Me-
-Beat by Trackmasters-

LYRICS:

Once upon a time there was a guy who tried to fight fair

He was a day dreamer and now his life is a nightmare

So he writes rhymes that he weaponizes to fight fear

Like a remedy that’ll temporarily dry tears...

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Took a long ride to arrive here, //
At the wrong place and the wrong time by a light year//
Came out the gates at a dangerously fast pace//
Now I’m in last place, on the last lap of the rat race//

Need an exorcism for my demons //
Need a better method of stress relieving besides screamin'//
...I’m a dark chasm of sarcasm//
Imma lost cause with an arm caught in a car crashin'//

I lost my way tryna follow a moral compass //
I’m exhausted now and all but exhausted all of my options in this…//
Plus I’m contemplating if god exists, //
Cuz if he did he did not equip me for all of this //

I was so empty and never noticed my soul left me,//
Til I looked down and I noticed the giant hole in me...//
Now I keep my heart in a coffin in a sarcophagus//
Locked in the darkest part of it and I’m constantly guardin it//

Wish I knew now what it was that I knew then,//
(Back then) When I knew how to control what I'm doing…//
I wish my life could be thrown inside the recycling bin and..,//
And try again and make better use of my time again//

I think I mighta tried too hard to get everbody to like me//
(Surprise!) People are assholes the more I try the more y’all despise me//
(Goodbye dream) No more get rich or die trying//
We survive life til we get spent, and try dying//

And I know no one's excited’//
(Not'even my friends) and I don’t show it but I'm dead//
… yet I’m not afraid to say I’m ashamed,//
…of what I became and I’m not ashamed to say I’m afraid//

Teqneek is dead and this is Jonathan bitch//
Live and direct from the basement of the bottomless pit//
With'a pen telling the tale of the narcoleptic insomniac//
Fallin' asleep at Denny’s an’ wakin’ up at the laundromat//

The time flies and I don't know where the time went,//
But I'm quite sure that we both certain that mine did,//
And now I’m warming up to being cold,//
And feeling old and the shitty feeling of being broke//

I miss the days when I wasn't livin in disarray//
I miss the days when I wasn't livin in misery,//
Yet we both know what today brings’ //
Another rogue wave and there’s no way you can save me//

Maybe I don't do everything that I say that I'mma do (&)//
Maybe I should hide the truth or maybe I should hide from you or,//
Maybe I misguided you or maybe I should try to explain,//
Maybe I owe you a few cases of AEIOUs//

Once upon a time there was a guy who tried to fight fair//
But life isn’t so now his life is a nightmare//
He’s an idealist, with an idea list//
And no idea why the hell he’s driving a white Kia//

Imma veteran of a foreign and a domestic war//
And I lost both and I guess you could say I'm gettin' bored...//
But I’m gettin' good at this russian roulette shit//
I won 5 times in a row how much you wanna bet I win 6?//

…On the flight deck as the bow of the sink ships//
I mean bow of the ship sinks I am dying to get sleep…//
And the next time that I close both'a my eyelids//
Imma go blind since I don’t have any sight left//

(‘Nah, Imma press on) til I finally lose the fight in me //
(..Til I’m outta shine) and I finally lose the light in me //
(...Til I can't decipher) between the wrong and the right in me//
(… Til I’m outta time) and I finally lose the life in me//

(…Til I’m at a height) with no steps left on the step stool//
(…Til I’m on a flight ) with a drip left of the jet fuel//
(Son) Til' I'm done doin what I love to do//
I’m done with you, I’m done Sun & FUCK the moon...//