-mao- 'Almost My Last Song' prod by LibbyShimmz

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Beat production by Libby Shimmz

You seem to disappear whenever I’m down
When I need you, you’re never around
So, I turn up the speakers just to hear you loud
Come on Mao! I really need you now!

I dig this pit deeper, maybe you went back to China
Maybe you’re just sleeping, maybe I need to get higher
I deny it to everyone, I tell them I don’t need any help
I have my own way to fix my broken mental health
By myself, but I always had you to help me release
I internalize it all, but you always had me at ease
Gave me a way to speak, you help me bring out my voice
You gave me a place to be, a space to play with my toys
I was a boy in my 20s when I was introduced to you
Never questioned my ideas, always made my emotions feel true
You made me fit in those ugly blue and orange shoes
You helped loosen the rope, you threw out the noose
But now I can’t hear you, and I don’t know what to do
Please come back Mao, what are you trying to prove?
Mickey is sick, and I don’t mean I’m dope
Mickey isn’t feeling good, I’m losing hope
I know, if I stick with it, it’s bound to get better
But the fight is getting hard, it would be easy to surrender
I think I want to end it, but I know I can’t quit
I’m always conflicted, my smile feels counterfeit
Truth is, I don’t know the end of this wicked story
But I’m worried I’m going to be another Richard Cory
If you can hear me, it might not be too late
Please Mao, I need you to help me see a new day.

I seem to disappear whenever your down
When you need me, I’m never around
So, you turn up the speakers just to hear me loud
Come on Mickey! You never really needed Mao.

Let’s get something straight, lets put it in the open
I am you, you the artist, you the poet
If you weren’t here, I would cease to exist
When you fall down, I fall deeper into the abyss
We’re in this together, I need you more than you need me
Let’s handle this anxiety so we can get some beauty sleep
Unity, you and me, but we need so outside assistance
So, lets reach out, its about time we admit it
This is depression and yes, we do feel alone
And we have that constant fear of the unpredictable unknown
But the fact is, we have a lot of friends that care
We would cause a lot of damage if we both disappeared
That’s not fair to our friends, can you imagine the family
We can’t do that to mom and dad, we can’t cause that tragedy
We don’t have to be strong, it’s ok to feel weak
Let’s keep writing these songs, let our voice speak
Please Mickey, talk to someone, if ok if they see you cry
It’s when you’re knocked down, you see how many allies are at your side.
Let’s get sanitized from these toxic thoughts,
It’s time to fantasize, lets get Matty high, awkward pause
So I go back to that goofy rap, that we both loves doing
You know that abstract illusion rap, or whatever we feel like doing
Do the math, the world minus you, that’s a faulty equation
Nothing takes you away! Except for a natural devastation
Or of old age, you let time write that chapter
Let’s write some rhymes, its time for laugher
It’s time for honesty, it’s time to talk
Take the time to clear your mind, lets go for a walk.

We seem to disappear whenever we’re down
When we need help, it feels like no-one is around
But then we turn down the music, and we ask for help
We can hear a lot of friends concerned with our mental health

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Im proud of you. You got better, keep up the good work. I can hear more confidence in your voice now

MickeyMao responds:

Thanks, it's been a journey and I'm glad this outlet provided me enough light to keep the adventures going. Good to hear from ya!

You are not alone. Reach out if you need somebody to talk to, if you need a person that has been where you are and could possibly show you were to find hope, inspiration, or a reason to live. Reach out to me. I'm here for you.

Much Love

MickeyMao responds:

Music therapy, is good. Thank you.

Credits & Info


4.19 / 5.00

Nov 25, 2018
9:55 AM EST
Hip Hop - Olskool
File Info
5.5 MB
3 min 43 sec

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Please contact me if you would like to use this in a project. We can discuss the details.