Powerful. Painful. @TheEighthHour did exemplary work here. And so did you, Nyana.
I know the events and actions behind these words, which makes it harder for me to hear this.
But it's good that you get your thoughts and feelings onto paper, writing them out helps a bit.
I hope you will never have to go through anything like this ever again.
If you do, I'll be there for you when I can, Nyana, I swear. *Teddybearhug*