I Understand- Syndrome Ft. Alkima

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I would like to give a huge thank you to Austin Hughey for lending us some of his mixing expertise on this track! Always a pleasure working with that guy.

Alkima has decided to pursue a new sound. Player One will continue rapping, but I will be trying my hand at singing, exclusively, from now on. Tell us what you think:


Doesn't matter what you say
Doesn't matter how you play
This game is ruthless
It'll leave you toothless

Doesn't matter how you feel
Doesn't matter what is real
This is an outbreak
My latest mistake


Years go past
through tears and through laughs
i still sit alone
on my swivel chair throne
I manipulate mana
like a magic puppet show
In the search for arcana
I'm determined i can't let it go
No formulas just guidelines to follow
Just like life arts a hard pill to swallow
Nobody has the answers i'll tell you that now
and tryna chase trends wont last long pal
Why even bother? that's a good question
I can't tell you jack cause i still lack direction
I'll find my own way hope to see you there
and if you still feel alone then keep your friends near cause



Every person tryna tell me one thing or another
Every person tryna be my mother or my brother
But you dont know the things I've seen
The places that I've been
And you don't know the nature of
the animal within

You don't have a reason to be scared
No wonder you have come so unprepared
I'm a different person in the night
Watch me as I lose the will to fight



I don't know if I can make it
I don't know if I wanna even try

I don't know if I can make it
I don't know if I wanna even try

Not gonna even try



[Outro Spoken]

I wonder whats made him act this way? What's going to happen to him?

Well, maybe instead of blaming video games you could actually just talk to your kids. (amikla) Just a thought guys. (A-Alkima)

I don't know if I wanna even try!

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I love the feel of the chorus, the vocals sound painful; great inflection and delivery, the heavy breathing adds on the tone of tge hook. The lyrics are well written, great imagery and feel to them. I am not a fan of the auto tuned FX tho; they were used sparely and were subtle( which I liked), but I prefer raw and natural voices for rap verses, this my preference so take it with a block of salt. Dope beat too!

Dope track tho, I am looking forward to seeing the direction that Alkima takes this new sound.

NeoAlchemist247 responds:

Thanks, Mao!

As always, it's such a pleasure to hear your opinions of my work. The pain you hear is very real. As with all of my music, it was written based off of 100% life experience and the emotions that flow from them. I've never done the singing full on- but I've discovered I can convey my feelings much better through singing than through rapping.

I wasn't a big fan of the auto-tune at first, either, to be incredibly honest. But Austin, the producer, doesn't do stuff for no reason. He told me to give them a chance- that they'd grow on me. They really have.

I can speak for all of Alkima when I say; we're excited to see where the sound takes us, too!

Really looking forward to writing a piece for your album you've been working on, man!

~DJDj, Alkima

Credits & Info

4.85 / 5.00

Apr 12, 2018
2:48 AM EDT
Hip Hop - Modern
File Info
5.2 MB
3 min 48 sec

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