I'm mexican and i can't have a perfect english because the "english centers" are fucking shit and are useless to learn another languaje so all the english that i know it's because i learned alone with music, movies and videogames.

So i like to sing like almost all the human beings but i'm do not do it very well, i hate listen my voice, was very hard try to do this.
The production is bad, my voice is worst and my pronunciation too.
The music are only 4 chords and an improvised solo.
I upload and made this song because is important to me, i'm trying to throw away the shame that i impreggned in me.
This description sounds like a lot of excuses to describe my low desempaign but i like that this will a permanent reminder to my music and i still try to be better on this, i don't fucking care if like you this or not.

Lyrics:
This morning i left another call,
the dawn starts to fall,
and the insane looks how it goes
from nowhere to another day

This time no maked more promises
this time no saw his own back

The black shades of the past can't be alive this time
the shapes of arrogant hands no blinding his eyes
the mistake of life still senseless
but was better than another self created claim

"love" no have sense yet
in all the autumn i can't find the truth
we don't know what the fuck it's better
we are trapped in the center of our graves

Forming better remains we are trapped
a paralax of the autumn sky
while the clouds darken the blackened night
i can be safe that i'm happy now

the cold went down to the earth and killed some demons
who are possessed by my melted face
cold from a body claims my heart
and sternly infects my head with new healt

broken nightmares grown on the soil
and are dry by the crippled mind oil

Raining the bones of decline,
destroying my safety line.

Temporaly the sun is iluminating our face
when the future is uncertany
and the past still a whore
but in the present no care these more.

With a hand over my hand,
with a smile over the sky,
I can strugle againts the present this time.

"This new autumn gets older too
should be die someday,
was transistory,
like all ephemeral shape.
But now was young,
fading all the past ghosts.
A present full of happiness"

Temporaly the sun is iluminating our face
when the future is uncertany
and the past still a whore
but in the present no care these more.

With a hand over my hand,
with a smile over the sky,
I can strugle againts the present this time.

You can follow my shitty art on Instagram and help to feed my ego:
https://www.instagram.com/ardakio2/

Track 7 from my first album, "Vegvísir" maybe it's available next year on Bandcamp now exist only one cd.