0:00The kick is nice and satisfying and I like the hi-hat and aux percussion sounds. I'm not too crazy about the bell synth at first, but once that nice fat saw bassline comes in it really ties it all together. Also, I'm a total sucker for that 1-3-5-4 bassline, but that's just me. God, that saw wave bass is tight, and the aux percussion keeps it all very active and interesting. Really good job on transitions, everything seems to flow together nicely. The synth you chose when the melody comes in and the drums drop out is just okay, but I really enjoyed the modulation/trance gate effects on it. The use of the bitcrushed kick increasing in pitch was pure genius. The synth with delay that comes in after is probably my favorite synth in the song. The delay on it really adds a lot. I love how much you switch things up, it's clearly not just the same thing copied and pasted over and over and I really do appreciate that.
Transitioning from synth to piano was a cool idea, but I feel like it could have been more gradual and subtle. I love the atmosphere of this section, but I'd recommend toning down the kick and snare a little and adding some more reverb. Love the multiple voices going on at once though. Also I think the transition where you play the kick every beat, then every eighth note, then every sixteenth note is a little overused, I might consider doing something else.
Once again, love your use of trance gate/filter modulation. The interplay between all the different instruments really fills out the songs and gives everything an incredible complexity. It's something that I always want to hear from electronic artists, and it's clearly something you've gotten down really well.
I personally don't like the ending, but that's just me. I probably would have ended it where everything was at its climax and just let it ring for a second, but again that's just what I would have done, and you can feel free to disregard it.
All in all, this is a top-notch track and I could only found a couple minor nitpicks. Really well done!
You said that you've been experiencing a lot of negativity on your stuff lately, but I just want to say that based on this song alone you're doing some really great work! Don't be afraid to listen to criticism of course, but also don't let negative people drag you down and convince you what you're doing isn't worthwhile. Learn, create, and keep up the good work!