how magnificent it is, that human beings can adapt to the toughest situations, and not only adapt but also shine.
yo, speak that! on this side, i felt the immense power of soul, many things youve said within this piece left me feeling awestruck, respect, empathy, admiration, and also temporarily captivated by the essence of your being.
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one thing i feel that you couldve worked on a bit more was the mixing of your vocals, and perhaps even a step back, to the actual recording process of your vocals. in some areas, when you speed through the words, it does hit the rhythm, but it gets drowned out by the high frequencies of the melody.
another note to keep in mind, is the energy you are feeling at that particular moment when youre in the booth. youre prolly familiar with this notion. it felt like you were not feeling the words as much, maybe previously to get through such drastic events in your lifetime, maybe you had the wall up a bit to feel more emotionally/psychologically secure/stable, but its like you had dammed up a river within you, and only some of that good water gets across.
your words are powerful, not to mention the way you interpret things are brilliant, though it seems that you are not feeling your own words as much and the meanings behind them. it could be because you are re-recording the same parts over and over again, till the focus of expression is shrouded by the concentration of articulation patterns, or it could be that you are only doing one-take recordings and you get distracted by external matters or just get tired a bit halfway through.
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these kinds of things happen a lot, especially in the martial arts of linguistics and logical bombardment interacting with emotions and im definitely no expert, just things that i have been through myself. sometimes, i observe these systems of processing (the stages of creating something our of nothing, translating complex feelings) and see the similarities between it and society by large. the way society moves through life shits and even our own species altogether through existence, is really reflective of our expressions within artistic boundaries and also the actual way the common man of the era thinks and feels.
alright, im getting a bit off topic now.
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one of the most outstanding quotes that i felt from this piece were (random order that i just picked out):
"im addicted to pain, i cant stop making the same mistakes"
"everyone i love burns me up, and everything i touch turns to dust"
"but hey truthfully if could i wouldnt change too many things"
"a shell of the hell of a guy that i always thought i would be"
"i got 2 girls i love to death, i just hate the world that created me"
" im accumulating a massive amount of wisdom too rapidly, and i have to breathe i dont think that the path im traveling, magically ends with the me and the girls of my dreams and happy"
"i tried to shine too many times and i oxidized and i rust"
"then play the victim in an existence which isnt fair to me"
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all of these quotes are genuine, heartfelt, and it is some of the things that i personally feel too.
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sometimes i wonder about getting older, and my dance with these imperfections, the same imperfections that make me who i am, but they do not define me, though people use them to try to define me.
sometimes i wonder if this dance will only get faster and faster until ***pop***, thats it, or maybe i will learn how to dance better with such a shitty dance partner that kicks me and punches the wind outta my gut every 30 seconds. not to mention the chokeslams, lol. but i think everything ive been through, you have been through.
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you know, sometimes its a lot better to just not look inside pandora's box. cause sometimes, theres things in there that scare the shit outta me. its like, my mind is a haunted house or something, but home is where the heart is. my bad for the essay, lmao.
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push on brutha, dont let it get the best of you.
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i like to refer to music as one of my good entity friends, she always helps me fight demons (neg energy), but at the price of individualism and consumerism here are some songs id like to share with you, i hope they help you in life:
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x792pVBX89o)
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H11dpyoWSPA)
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q5klMlQMco0)
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hGsL9eK-muw)
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8r5RxrhpXy8)
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lXBAReBOJbQ)
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aOLEdKfdJJM)
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2LwAkavpCvA)
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H9jKopMIW6M)
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MQQTOOCkHzU)
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e8LG-VXE6ck)
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h6N1_GJAyFw)
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YixAD9GIAuY)
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n26TChMdm_c)
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peace thru pieces
Q ~~
Teqneek 
