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Your Own Grace + Kicked

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Your Own Grace + Kicked

a 4-part folksy bluesy folksy grunge song about suicide: 1) the grunge surf rock intro you are now hearing, 2) the main bit, with the twangy acoustic guitars and all-out ugly poppy drawled vocals, 3) then onto "Kicked" - a folk-trance mood piece with only 5 lines of vocals, and 4) the funky grungy lazy instrumental outro, a variation on the musical theme of Kicked, played very very badly.
is it grunge, overall? i think so. the spirit is, even if the playing style varies. that's also my intention with the sound quality, production-wise. grunge. critique as necessary.
the whole new album deals with this evolution from grunge to folk to metal to pop and back again and in between... as well as all these themes, of it never, ever being enough... this song's meaning is hard to really describe. is it a joke? not completely. but is it totally serious? not at all. so the meaning of it seems clear as day and yet is disturbing to me because it is what it is, patently. suicide. it's serious shit. but not here. why are these two songs combined? because i play them that way... always YOG+K.
these are two of my oldest songs, also, and many of them in that same period dealt with the issue of suicide. that's how i dealt with it. this song... songs and music and writing in general. i've killed myself a hundred times in my writing - thrice in this song alone :)
i first recorded Kicked (the 1st part anyway) in my mom's garage in 1999, and wrote Your Own Grace a few months later (never having recorded it). it's always been on the backburner. the surf grunge intro came out of nowhere at that same time, specifically to open this song. i've never even used it for anything else up until now, as many songs of mine are in this key...

"Your Own Grace"

i walk on the beach with the sand beneath my feet
and the sun slips below a blurred horizon
her shrill voice brings me back and she urges me to come
so i submerge and take the water into my lungs

it's not enough to know you're there
i want to see it, when you're helpless and aware

i write at my desk in the basement with the rats
and she comes to bring my dinner wearing nothing
take control, adjust the rope / this time she;ll know it's not a joke
and i kicked that old chair over and my neck broke

i want to be there when you fall from your own grace
if i could see it when you break down with no faith
cuz it'snot enough to know you're there
i want to see it when there is no body there

she brushes off her lip gloss, and re-adjusts her hair
then turns to me and asks "how do i look?"
nevermind the wrongs you done me / nevermind this aching heart
that's why i feel safe with a loaded gun behind my pillow

i want to be there when you fall from your own grace
if i could see it when you break down with no faith
cuz baby it's not enough / to know that you're still there
i want to see it when there's no one there to catch you when you fall
but i can't


i cannot relate to you what i saw that night
it was such a nightmare / i was lucky to have made it out alive
i'd never wish an enemy to see an awful sight
as waking up from a dream and finding out that it's your life
you're kicked


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Nice lyrics, and you have a very good stylistic combination. Vocals are not bad either.

These are just my opinions on how to improve but I love both songs regardless and how you play them together. You're a very talented dude.
With that being said I think that that Surfy 80's hard rock riff should be reserved for another song or maybe broken into a solo or used at the end, instead of the break down you have there. It's just unexpected and out of place in my opinion to be in the begining of the song since it's only used there. I like the theme of suicide going to such a seemingly cheerful melody. I don't really see how you kill yourself three times in the song unless the loaded gun under the pillow part was one, (But badasses sleep with guns under their pillows so I don't get it) it's never hinted that you use it. I played around with some different direct suicide lyric's during the third verse just to keep the song unexpectedly melancholic.

Kicked is a good follow up to keep it a grungy medley and while at first I wasn't all for it following Your Own Grace, after a couple listens it does sound good. The starting riff just sounds full of turmoil and it has a nice grungy/scratchy/bewildered chord progression that compliments your riff well.
Needless to say like anything you write the lyrics to both songs are just awesome and this is one of my new favorite song(s) from you. Keep that pimp hand strong Ross.

Gunshy responds:

:) and furthermore, :))


This is great. The lyrics are great. I really like how you combined so many different syles of music in this song... well.. these songs?... this submission.. yeah... Your music never disappoints me.

Gunshy responds:

Thanks so much :) i really didn't expect such an unequivocally positive review right off the bat. your continuing fandom of my music is awesome, and for that I thank you kindly.

Credits & Info


4.87 / 5.00

Nov 16, 2011
10:55 AM EST
File Info
13.6 MB
8 min 31 sec

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