Some nice, thought-provoking ambiance happening here... Very enjoyable!
I hear everything you're talking about
and I raise you a 9 with a 5/5 and a download. I know exactly what you mean about remembering how you got something to sound that way in Audacity. I have the same issue myself.
I'm staunch in my experimental views and I believe that not everything must or should sound, "good," or ,"perfect," in any sense other than personal preference (probably why my music isn't popular, but that's cool). That being said, this is only truly beautiful art if you as the creator believe it so, but in my point of view it is.
The more I listen to this the more I like it. I can tell that thought and emotion went into making this song and it reminds me of myself. Creating art like this is almost never linear, so don't get discouraged along the way.
Keep up the amazing work.
Thanks man, very much appreciated