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I first want to sincerely apologize that I haven't released any new music lately. I've been pretty busy with school. But now that I've graduated from high school, I'm going to have plenty of free time to work on new music over the summer!
Hopefully I can finish a new album, or perhaps just an EP before I head off to college!
Anyhow, this new song is something completely new and different for me. It is the first song I'm publishing that has vocals in it. And I had a lot of fun experimenting with vocal effects and overlaying my voice (hopefully I didn't overdo it!). To be honest, this could probably be classified as kind of a soft/alternative rock-ish song. But for those of you who are fans of my instrumental stuff, don't worry! I plan to continue making instrumental/orchestral pieces also. This is just me trying to expand my musical horizons (plus, I love singing).
Lastly, I put a lot of passion into this song. It is more personally significant to me than anything else I've written before. I really hope that all of my emotions come through in this song.
I was young
I was foolish
I was blind
I was blinded by you
And I lost myself
In a sea of desire
Someone could have told me to be patient
Why wasn't I?
Why'd I have to do everything, everything, everything wrong?
Why couldn't I be the one who was strong?
Why'd I have to choose to push you away?
Why'd I have to lose everything, everything I never had anyway?]
It's times like these I feel like my life can never move on
You tell me to forget, but it's not that easy
I'm searching for a switch to shut out these thoughts
But I can never forgive myself for what I've done
Now I just want to cry away all my tears
So you never have to see my distorted face
Now it seems my life is running
I can't slow down
As soon as I'm alone
It all knocks me to the ground
I close my eyes and try to sleep
But I'm already drowning, in regret
And tell me, have you ever tried to sleep while underwater?
Tell me did you ever even want this to work?
The number of times you looked at me
I can count on one hand
I was the one who had the stake in all this
I should have been stronger
Put up with everything for longer
And now I need to know. Could this have ever worked?
Did I push us apart,
Or did you write me off from the very start?
Tell me, can you spin time in reverse?]
I tell you,
You were everything, everything, everything to my childish mind.
You were everything, everything, everything that seemed too good to be mine.
And you're still everything I cannot climb past.
And I'm trying to take back everything, but I can't undo anything, anything, anything.]