Dude, the emotions you must be feeling in order to put this up here have to be intense man. I love how it's not fake, it's a true emotional work of someone with a true passion for music.
I feel for you man, I really do, the pain you must be feeling isn't something easy to get over. Being able to express it through a medium such as this is really touching to me. Keep going man, express yourself, people will see it and know it's real.