(EDIT: UPLOADED UPDATED VERSION. ORIGINAL WAS EXPORTED INCORRECTLY 9/25/24)

This one was started in June of 2020 and I'm calling it good enough now. This idea actually came to me about what Jesus has done for me, who I used to be, and what I went through in relation to the name of a local band some of my highschool friends were in together. I always thought it was the dumbest name "Fractures In Fear"... I lived in constant fear: fear of failing, fear of making myself look stupid, fear of people finding out what I was really like, fear of pain, fear of death and the list went on. It just never made sense to me, they didn't sing about anything that had to do with the name of the band. So I had thought back to that and found that I had a new appreciation for that name because of how Jesus set me free from all that constant fear--, but He didn't just fracture it, He shattered it into pieces and threw those pieces away! No more fear of death!

I have an old song I wrote on here from 2010 called "The Fear" which was an expression of my fear of death. I always knew since I was a little child that if I died there would be nothingness (blackness) and burning and I was terrified. Nobody told me this, I just inherently knew it! I eventually became an atheist but that didn't change what I knew about death, so I became a Satanist so I could have power over my destiny. I was a disgusting person, entirely absorbed in evil and my mind was whacked. When I finally came to the end of myself in the back of a trailer in North Carolina I opened a $1 Bible and read Luke. I read that gospel with an open mind and found that Jesus is what I had needed all along. His death on the cross means my sins are paid for and His resurrection on the 3rd day proves it, all I had to do was believe, turn away from my sin (repent of the bad stuff you do), and make Him the Lord (master) of my life and I would have eternal life. No more burning and darkness for me, HALLELUJAH!

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Lyrics, lyrics, LYRICSSSS:

Chorus:

You put the fractures in my fear: shattered it with nails that pierced

Through Your flesh into my cross

You shine the light on what I've been: a monster entombed in sin

I've left the asylum I won't go back

Verse 1:

In my obsession for a lonely place, in solitude is where I'd greet them

The waking nightmares that would captivate. I Won't look away cuz I enjoy them

Wasting away in front of twisted figures, denizens of disgust

I loved them more and more everyday til there was noone left to trust

Verse 2:

In my screaming I would propagate my eternal fear and temporal hate

believing truth is something I create, becoming more and more a retrobate

Bridge 1:

Hidden behind an internal disguise, I can't believe me- I am a lie

Tinged with the scent of the fire- The penalty of my waking desires

over and over- over and over again I hide from and decieve my family and my friends

Change me from the inside out Lord! I just cannot make my fears come to end myself

Bridge 2:

Close to the dare I dared not do I would have dared if not for you

Each night I stared into the void paralyzed by fear inside... but