Track 5 of 5 off my new EP "this was supposed to be happy", out now on bandcamp: https://nowitsart.bandcamp.com/album/this-was-supposed-to-be-happy

I made this (along with the other tracks) in December 2020, and am only able to finally put them out now. I wanted to get this out on 12/30/21 but you know nothing is ever going to go to plan with me.

Normally I would go into overly-extended detail about what all the songs mean and whatever, but I'm not ready to yet for these. Not enough time has passed still, somehow.

I will say though, that this is only part 1 of this project, so there is definitely more to come.

LYRICS

Hey dad I'm sorry

I just couldn't make you proud

It's been ten years since you died

and I just don't know how

Every day I end up wasting

really brings me down

I guess it ain't so bad though,

'cause I'm still not in the ground

There's always a chance

You'll see

If you work for it

you can be free

There's a new year coming up

I wanna work hard so I won't be stuck

I'm gonna try my best to make a name

But what if it just ends up being the same?

I have reached my limits

More times than I can count

And my head keeps spinning

'Cause I'm always filled with doubt

I'm only so lonely 'cause

there is no one around

Well, I got them, but man

they're always bringing me down

There's a new year coming up

I wanna work hard so I won't be stuck

I'm gonna try my best to get back on top

I really hope there's nothing forcing me to stop

Again

This year was not good, but I don't need to tell you that. None of it really matters though now, 'cause... it's over.

The year that is.

But of course things never go to plan, ya know. Always have big plans for the end of the year. They never come true.

I just wanted to get something done that would make my dad proud, something that I could be proud of, and I couldn't, because I'm just not capable of making things as fast as it needs to happen... because I'm so depressed.

But I'm going to try so hard to actually make things happen next year.

Whatever it takes.

Whatever it takes.

Well I tried