If I have any advice to you that might help with a self-hatred problem, it would be to focus not on wishing you were different right now, or wishing that the things you had done in the past were different, but on what you can do right now in the present to work on the things you want to work on. The past is out of your control - learn the lesson from it and be done with it. In the present, however, you can take one step at a time to better become who you want to be.
Very well-drawn and meaningful comic. It communicates a lot with only just those two speech bubbles and four panels. Nice work, and congrats on the front page - you deserve it.