The bath used to be my resort from everything. My Mind nowadays leaks it stained thoughts through the hole in my chest. Having no constant distraction and having to stay alone with my thoughts let my demons come out to leave me in deterministic believes...Deterministic in everything is already laid out on your path through life. The more days pass the more this becomes clear to me. I try to escape the daily monotone routine but with no avail. No matter how hard i try i always end up where i started. It's not a bad spot to be in per se, but stagnation is slowly rotting away my core. F(r)iends always trying to manipulate you for their own benefits and then ghosting you for whatever reason... If the rotting starts it's though to overcome because it spreads to all parts...