Very troubling indeed, but at the same time it's been extremely nice to get this out. It's like it has been waiting for years for me to be ready to express it (along with 100 other pieces.) And now that I've become decent with Corel Painter and started using the "Artist's Oil" brushes, it exploded outward. At the end of the day, I'm not extremely proud of it, but I did learn a lot while I was doing it, and it expresses a very important (and very troubling) part of my life.
I know a lot of people aren't going to like this, but hopefully some of you do.