…the sad truth is that no one actually matters unless they have friends or family, im just a man who wants to die everyday I want to kill myself and I’m only 16 my life is shit I fucked my self over Idisipionted my mama by failing the tenth grade gonna have to take online course to even hope of getting into 11th grade, every time look at the street and I see a car coming I think about jumping in front of it yet I don’t…and I don’t know why..I just wish all this mental shit never happened to me I wish I didn’t screw myself over I wish I never hung out with someone who groomed me and I suffer from non existential guilt that is from that ,man I hate my life and I’m going have a to suffer through it alone no one, the only person I’ll have is my mama and when she’s gone I’ll be alone ,no one, nothing…but I guess life ain’t so bad as long as I have my mtg ,video games, my mama and my art…the only things I live for at this point man I just wish I wasn’t felt this hand, but I might as well play it who knows I may even get full house in this poker game we call life.