FINALLY, IT IS DONE, Fall To Your Knees and Rise From The Grave, i had this on hiatus for so long and it was killing me, but its here, this is Me, here I am, Witness Me, i will make more art
(The following is just a rant about my scholar life, please ignore, im writting this for me)
I finally found what was lost, i started to have this routine to my life, a really good one, i started the day, at 9AM did my warming up, prepare myself hot chocolate and went around drawing to then take a bath and do my exercises before going to sleep, it wasnt a good routine, but i could fit most of my activities that way without much problem, but then THIS image happened, i wanted to redraw and old portrait of Me and decided to finally use this Wacom i buy thanks to a lot of effort and help, but when i leave a project halfway through it itches inside of my brain and it doesnt allow me to advace any new projects, and now i have like other 3 drawings (for my school) there gathering dust, and when i woke up at 7 AM today it finally dawned on me, MEIN GOTT, I CAN VALK, no wait, thats not it, one of the most important lessons i learned when i started doing my exercises (as a way to calm my nerves thanks to the shittiest professor i've ever seen) was to fully commit myself, like what im doing now, this rant is a performance a way to finally let out all this frustration builded up inside me, i have to take one feeling, one raw emotion and drive it until i crash into a wall and then crush down that wall.
I finally didi it, at least the first step, thsi drawing, my first ever completed drawing on my new wacom tablert is DONE, of course it lacks a lot of things, but i will eventually learn them as i go, have this as a landmark, as a monolith to what i can achieve, thank you, i humble myself before all of you for taking up so long into finishing this, i will NOT promise you to make more soon, I WILL DO IT, I WILL PUT MY MONEY WHERE MY MOUTH IS AND MAKE MORE, OR MY NAME IS NO LONGER EL CATRIN.
Sorry and thank you again, i hope nobody bothers to read this, but if you do, please comment something along the lines of "Hollow Eyes".