A lot of you called bullshit, and, well, you were right. It's time I got something off my chest, something I've been struggling to come to terms with for a while. I've always been reluctant about it, allowing myself to come off as a hypocrite engaging in numerous mental gymnastics at times in a desperate attempt to rationalize myself. The memes end here. It's about time I let myself out to myself. I am gay. This is a truth I've struggled with for so long because of my political preferences (which I sitll hold into dearly) and my upbringing. This self-denial has been the cause of many dubious aspects of myself.
Me saying "sex is useless" was just a way to trivialize the act itself into nothingness due to my knowledge that, if I never came out, I probably would never get to experience the act. I really do believe it is a beautiful and natural aspect of humanity, but since I myself have been feeling unnatural I wished to project this delusion onto the outside world, which I now see as foolish and selfish. Me calling other people degenerative was to make myself feel less bad about being a filthy fucking queer. I can't emphasize my diadain for these actions enough. I hates myself every moment of committing them.
If this a shock to some of my friends, I am sorry. If this isn't, well, haha fuck me right? I'm sorry for keeping all you brodies in the dark for so long. I hope that this is the beginning of a new life for me. I would be lying if I said I wasn't scared, but my newfound passion has filled me with a high energy and newfound pride and passion.
I know I picked a very unfortunate day to say l of this, but I just had enough.