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Running time - 5 minutes

Majority of the animation was made December 2011 & January 2012
Made in approximately 100 hours

View more of my films at my website
www.thelamboy.com
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Unbelievable!

What the heck am I doing on the front page?!

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DIALOGUE:

I don't know how many days I have left.
What makes me think I'll even live another hour?
Why even bother living this life only to lose it all.
Chasing after the f****** wind.

I could live to all the good moral standards of my culture
but I'd die just the same as the people with the worst moral standards.
I think I'd be happier being an immoral person, though I know it's a lie.

My heart reeks corruption.
Following my desires I'd never want to work,
never help people,
unless I get something out of it of corse
and just be a blood sucking leech on everyone around me but worse.
Destroying the very things that sustain me.

_____instrumental_____

I don't want to hurt people
but if I don't, I'll hurt myself.
Either way I'm going to cause destruction and death.
So wouldn't it be better for only one person to die than many.

Sure, they'll be sad, but they will find a way to live without me, right?
What am I thinking! they are no different than me!
Then we should all, just, die.

_____instrumental_____

stop.

You speek rightly. You do deserve death
You have thought nothing but the evils of your wicked heart since the day of your creation.
You could never be pleasing to God.

But do you think God didn't know that?
You think God made you just to bring you pain?

Know this, you will always have problems in this life
but hear me correctly when I say this statement.

your corruption is your fault.
your corruption is your fault.
Not because you could chose not to be corrupt,
but because you have not given up on yourself.

You run like a mouse on a wheel trying to get away,
no trying to walk on water,
no trying to fly with your arms.
You try and try and try, to do something you can never do.
but you were never meant to.
you need only to seek the one who gives freely.

I know your impatient,
you could be watching tv or doing something to amuse your mind.

But when you realise the truth, that you have nothing,

Look to God, not yourself.
Because He is our only real foundation in this life.
You will go to hell in your own strength.

Please, realise God's love for you,
despite all your corruption
and may His love, change you

Reviews


PuffStuffPuffStuff

Rated 5 / 5 stars

For what it's worth, despite the old animation, it was something I needed.



synyztahkillah09synyztahkillah09

Rated 5 / 5 stars

Although I lean heavily toward Agnostic, this was an amazing flash and song. Great job! :)



drewdalessdrewdaless

Rated 5 / 5 stars

I been watching this every few days for past couple of months. Can relate more to the first half than the second part, nowadays. A young worn torn veteran. Was taking care of my family, lost my career, can't take care of them anymore. Got into my own desires with women, drugs, fighting. Can't even remember what it was I was fighting for. Everyday now if I see a building, I think about jumping, or a lake drowning, or a train standing in front of it. Can't remember the last time I was not sad.
Watching this sometimes is the only reason I think not to end it suddenly, that, and how sad it would make my family and friends. Most of the time I numb myself of what I feel because that is the only way I can coup with what I have become or what I done. You're video is truely inspiring. Not really that hopeful, but this video for some reason gives me a little. Thanks.



chrisyrulzchrisyrulz

Rated 5 / 5 stars

Good message, accompanied by great animation. Well done.



warewolveswarewolves

Rated 4 / 5 stars

It touched me, I can tell that much.
I'm unsure if I am religious or not, open to both I guess. I don't want to have to chose between spiritual and scientific if that makes sense.

It also brings up the question that has been on my mind for a while now. I live in a society where negitive things are shovelled onto you, and a few years ago I was drowing under it. Even now I sometimes stil have those moments.

However I've found a solution, which is to let all those negitive thoughs go. Let go of my anger to those people who irk me for the sake of happiness.

So my question is simple.
Is it alright to forget the bad, for the sake of happiness? Is it alright to ignore everything that makes me worry, and fear for the future for the sake of keeping my head above the surface?

Global warming, government, grades, family. There are so many things piling up in my life and it is hard enough to adress my own issues without having to worry about others. And I do, I can't help it. I feel for every person who has something bad happening in their life.

But no one else seems to care. Cutting down on my usage of power and water, family starts to use more. Study hard for the test, get lower grades then when I hadn't studied. Family grieving over loss of family. Family not understanding what I wish to do with my life.

It is enough to make me want to scream. I can't handle it all at once, I can't solve every problem. I have no solution.

But is it allowed, to ignore everything that I can't change and focus on what I can?
ARGH, why does my mind have to come up with such hard questions?


nahtanojmal responds:

I think choosing to be spiritual or scientific is like having to chose which side of my brain I'm allowed to use. You need both.

Yes, if you want temporal happiness that will fade as the bad arises...

Philippians 4:6-7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

"Look to God, not yourself.
Because He is our only real foundation in this life."

If you do not regard God you will have to deal with these things by ignoring them or by false hope.

Thank you for your comment ;)