Score: 10
"My god..."
date: March 13, 2007
That...that was undoubtedly the best and worst thing I have ever seen. If I am confusing you by this double-edged statement, let me explain. It is the best in terms that I feel quite nauseous at imagining what you and your brother went through. It is the worst in terms of just how sickening in the truth of how gruesome domestic violence can be, when coupled with alcoholism and racism. I only hope that one day, you escape that living hell-hole, and live free to do whatever you please. If it were up to me, I would have made sure that the alcoholic, uncaring, demanding, SOB of a father you had would pay the ultimate price. Maybe now he will get the notion in his thick skull that his alcoholism has all but destroyed the family he once knew. My deepest condolescences to the loss of your brother. I hope that your old man is still around so you can drag him to your brother's grave, point at it and say, "This is what your addiction and drinking has lead to. How does it feel to know that you're the one responsible for the death of your only son?" I hope that after he realizes this, he cannot sleep a wink for the thought that he as good as sent his son to the grave haunts his every slumbering and waking moment. I know this sounds very uncharacteristically harsh, but in all truthfulness, he deserves it. He deserves it and more, so much more. It is the rigidness of past generations that have applied so much pressure to your parents' generation, that perfection is expected of them, and failure to comply or reach those standards are terrible and brutal to witness. Still, that does not make it just or right for your father to become the very thing he himself may have hated, loathed, and feared as a teenager growing up just like you. I sit here, in my solitary view of what the world really has become, and you know what I see? I see talented artists like you shunned and stepped on just because the medium you are using is broadcasting a message to the world that "they" don't like. By "they", I mean everyone who continues to live their lives in ignorance. Sadly turning a blind eye on the less fortunate, the families torn asunder by domestic violence and other brutal acts of selfishness and self-preservation that we humans are so good at using to our advantage. I see the lower social class exploited just because they have no means of safety. Examples follow such as the situation you were (or still currently in), the consecutive rape and murder of prostitutes. They are raped and then killed (sometimes not killed), merely because no-one will believe their words since the lower social class has very dubious stereotypes of duping innocent people out of money. "Innocent people"? Is that what the wealthy, snobbish upper class refer to the average citizens of today as? I should think that the only "innocent people" that deserve that title are the lower classes themselves, such as the prostitutes. I apologize for this rant, but I needed to let you know that I do not believe you are a self-pitying kind of person. I hope that you will continue to send this message out to the peoples of this world, since we could all do with a dose of hard, cold, truth now and again. Bravo to you for taking that step in letting the world know that life isn't all peachy, and it also isn't all roses and sunshine. Sometimes it can be a pit of despair as gaping as the very mouth of hell about to swallow you up.