I'm going into 9th grade, and I pretty much fucked up all the way through middle school. I pissed off teachers, made bad grades, got in trouble... had no friends... etc. etc. I'm finally going to get that clean slate I've wanted for 3 years. Also, I just need a schedule. I'm looking for something to do, and to be in a place where I can actually achieve.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not an idiot. I happen to be rather intelligent. But because I was so deprived of everything I needed, and had found no real joy in life, I relied on other things to make me happy. Basically I would choose and hour of using the computer over and hour of studying because that hour of using the computer would make me somewhat happy, where homework did not. But that was when I felt that I could achieve nothing through school. But I feel different now. Through high school I'm going to try to stay out of the "screw it all" mentality and move into a mentality where I find joy out of everything. Instead of finding joy out of thing's that don't matter, I plan to focus on things that I can excel in and have something to be proud of.
I really can't wait for school to start. I feel that I don't want my sumer to be wished away, because I've still got some things I want to do. A lot of things are going on right now in my life, and almost all of them are handing me a new chance to do something different and positive. I used to say I didn't like school, and I was really insecure. Having a clean slate gives me a new sense of confidence. I used to worry about every goddamned thing. Everything.
Anyhow, I've made my resolutions. They are:
1. Be more active in school
2. Find joy in excelling in school
What about you? Do you have any resolutions for the '08/'09 school year?