So I think I've posted in here before that I'm kind of slowly starting to come out of the closet and I've told a few friends at this point. For the most part they've all been friends who I knew would react well to it and not be awkward, I'm really not trying to make it to be a big deal.
But I just can't bring myself to tell my best friend. It's fucking stupid because I know he won't care but I'm just not sure how it's going to affect things. There are so few people who get me as well as this guy do and I'm terrified of fucking that up.
The problem is that since we've gone to university in different cities he's ended up in the crew of guys who I will call bromosexuals for lack of a better term. They get drunk and grab each others nipples and do shit like that for laughs or something, but are sexually into women. So now whenever I go back home and we hang out he ends up doing it around me too. He always initiates and I try to kind of play it off while not really encouraging it, but fuck if I don't enjoy it, he's hot and we're usually pretty drunk when it happens so my self-control is definitely not there. I have no problem with the idea of him not doing this with me anymore, but I'm worried when I tell him I'm into guys he'll look back on it like I was trying to get in his pants, or that I've been into him for all this time or some shit.
I mean I'm probably overthinking it completely because the damage is already done but I just don't want to fuck up our friendship... anyone got comments/advice?