At 11/17/12 08:43 AM, SG3 wrote:
So, apparently Uganda is proposing to pass a bill in 2013 that would make homosexuality punishable by death. Even worse, the country's homophobia was supposedly exacerbated by American evangelist Christian missionaries preaching the horrors of being gay. Anyone hear anything about this?
I heard about that. It doesn't surprise me, although the fact that it was encouraged by American Christian fundamentalists adds to my jaded cynicism. I don't want to hate religion; I really don't. I understand that it empowers a lot of people to do good, and I know that moderate religious people do no harm. My father is a church deacon. But I can't help but feel indignant despite my better judgment. I know that without religion, people would only find another excuse. I know that this persecution is founded on a deeper foundation than simple religious preaching. People are simply afraid of the unfamiliar by nature, and they would likely act the same with or without religion. But all the same, I can't stop myself from wishing religion away. I guess its just an indicator that I'm guilty of being part of the "us and them" culture.
I find it genuinely terrifying that, on a global level, LGBT people are vastly outnumbered by those who utterly despise them. Gives me an inferiority complex just thinking about it.
It doesn't make me feel inferior. I'm not going to let a bunch of fundamentalist bigots dictate my self image. But I'm tired of it making me tentative to talk about it. I go to an extremely liberal college, and my friends are all supportive of gay rights. Yet for some reason, I feel uncomfortable talking about how I like girls. There's no real rationale since I know that thy have no problem with it yet I feel most comfortable when I go along with them talking about attractive men. I've even been outright told that they think its cool that I'm openly gay but I still don't feel comfortable making comments about attractive women like the ones they make about men.
I also went to an extremely liberal high school so I was never bullied for my sexuality. Consequently, it's not like I have lingering insecurities arising from past social ostracizing. It's just that I hear all these stories that give me this irrational fear of these people--that is, my friends--alienating me. So I don't talk about it even though I would like to. I would like to talk about my issues, that is, my loneliness and frustration with the fact that I can't seem to meet single, gay women here because it's on my mind a lot. But I can't because of this irrational fear so I get indignant and frustrated with the world.
Not sure where I'm going with this. ramble ramble ramble ramble. It's late.