Something kind of awkward happened to me recently.
First I had a chance to have sex with a guy. I felt err... attraction up until the actual moment. Then I just froze and became repulsed by the fact that he was kissing me and made him stop. I felt weird about it and decided that I just didn't like the guy and was too nervous. What's worse is a few weeks later the same thing happened, except the guy was one of my best friends that I had a crush on in high school. Same thing happened, I was turned on a little when I thought about him and he was talking about it but when it came down to it I couldn't have sex with a guy.
The only explanation is that I'm not bi and that I was wrong this entire time. I'm extremely confused and I don't feel that I should be at this age. I was so nervous with the second guy that I was shaking and breathing hard but I still don't think it's enough for nervousness to be an explanation.
I guess it's not that bad, I mean I couldn't care less what sexuality I am but now the best friend I had growing up is avoiding me and I have friends and family that think I'm bi. Plus I have the same conflicting feelings I had at age 13 as an adult. Oh well.