At 3/28/10 06:33 PM, Sensationalism wrote:
Maybe it's a bit early, but I'm looking forward to summer. Anyone doing anything cool?
I'm probably not. Unless staying inside on the computer all day counts as cool!!
Well, I may be doing all sorts. There's the university I may be going to if my marks are right, I'll need to do some shopping and get the things I need for that like some bed sheets, some pots and pans and maybe other things. I may be seeing a guy I've known for a few months who is pretty cute, although I'm unsure on that. If nothing else pops up, I'll be going to bed in the early hours and getting up late, while doing a shit ton of revision.
One thing I am shocked at still is recently I met a girl I really like. Well, I've known her for quite a few months and met her at a gay/bi chat room at deviantART, but we grew on each other. I think she begun crushing on me a few months ago and I somewhat followed suit after, noticing more and more that she was a highlight of my day (which would otherwise consist of talking to random people inanely and maybe play computer games I grew bored of a few months back). Then, I guess, it clicked that I felt strongly for her as well. There's really only one bad thing about her (she's anti-alcohol and anti-drug to the point of even being in a club that is against that kind of thing) but even then, she's accepting of my views on alcohol and drugs (which I feel people should take whatever they wish and be forced to pick up whatever mess they make, this includes the medical bills (even if they go to the NHS)). I'm still surprised (even more so she actually likes all my stories).
The more I think about this, the more I think about a phrase I once read in maths when I was in year 7 or 8. That love was like a butterfly the more it runs away but if you stop paying attention to it, it'll perch it's self on your shoulder. I was looking for a gay relationship convinced that I had a strong inclination towards that and suddenly I find her. I hope it works out well, even if it is a very long distance relationship (England to America). I can cope with the distance, and I think she can as well since she has experience with it. Time will tell though. We haven't started dating yet since she's still tying up loose ends from her previous relationship. Soon though, hopefully. I still get niggling feelings that it could all be one big massive prank or that she may be using me, but I doubt it. It's just too much effort for that kind of thing I think. We'll see in time though. Just hope it doesn't end badly, or at least not as badly as my previous relationship.