At 1/17/13 06:09 PM, Glides wrote:
Had a pretty life changing experience today. I finally finished the first completed scene of a screenplay I was writing, and showed it to my co-writer (we're making it ourselves, so it's not like this is some huge Hollywood movie or whatever). He proceeded to tell me that it was the worst thing he'd ever read (worse than a 1980s sitcom was the terminology he used).
Looking back at it, I realized he was right: i can't write worth shit. And he wasn't even being mean about it, he was giving me constructive criticism as to HOW it sucked, not just the general statement.
So I'm going to stop writing this thing and let him handle the rest. He's clearly way better at this than I am. And as much as I love movies and as much as I want to make them, I'm too awful at making them for this profession. I don't have what it takes.
I'm guessing none of the great filmmakers ever felt like this.
I'm sure most had very similar thoughts at one time or another. Steven Spielberg, JJ Abrams, Edgar Wright, and Zach Synder all made movies as kids/young adults (there are others, this is just off the top of my head) and, even if theirs then were better than yours now, it was only their perseverance and dedication that led them to have the ability they have today.
The stuff I write is of such terrible standard, I've genuinely cried over its quality before. I've suffered through severe depression since age fourteen and a large part of that is my high ambition (screenwriter) paired with my lack of skill. But realistically, as long as you spend enough time developing your technique, and have enough motivation to spend years pursuing your goal, it's not unlikely that you'll eventually succeed.
After I finish school, I'm going to study creative writing at university, and then take a master's in screenwriting. I figure if I keep writing on the side until then, I'll gradually improve on my own as well. After that, I'm guessing it will take maybe a decade's practice at writing films until I'm good enough to actually write one. Writing one that's compelling enough to actually work as a spec script is another story, but I can't imagine I'll stop trying.
Film is my life. I might not have a developed taste in it yet, but I'm working on that as I go, and I can't think of anything else that would keep me from it. I sounds like you're pretty similar, so I hope you don't give in. Just because you suck now doesn't mean you should just give up.
You can always just rewatch the first Muppets movie for inspiration, anyway.