At 6/21/08 02:03 AM, Senti wrote:
wait, are we supposed to post when we are drunk or not
I won't even read the rest of the posts, the answer IS UES!
I myself am drunk, and let me rant a bit.
So to keep things semi simple, I was with a female for nearly 2 best relationship of my life, I actualy consider it the only true "love" I've had of my entire life. Thing is, she got accepted to UBC in Canada and decided to go leaving me out of her life. It was a neatrual seperation and I don't see her any more but we talk all the time. I totally still love her but fuck, I can't do anything about it, she's all the way up there. To ellaborate on the seriousness of us, I took a 96 hour bus ride through greyhound to visit her during our 5 month period of long distance (after being together 6 months of none long distance, hard to explain). Anyway, that trip was hell, and it was 96 hours each way. We had the best relationship I've ever known and ya, I really just can't move on with my life. Every time the idea of dating another chick comes into play, it just seems wrong, it doesn't feel like it's the way things are suppose to be, like the actual order of the universe is fucked up if I do anything along those lines, I know that's weird but it's honest what I feel, I really just can't see myself with anyone else. I can't ellaborate enough how much of a great couple we were, it's not your normal "we love each other" BS relationship, it really was serious, and I just wish it could still exist. So I talked to her tnoight drunk off my ass, she was at at party herself with her new boyfriend (not a very serious realationship, but not my business). I just can't stand the idea of her being with another dude, espeically the idea of this dude being the lame bastard she's told me he is (to an extent, nice guy , but boring as fuck). Anyway, what the fuck should someone like me do? I Want so badly to move on with my life, but seriously, with anyone, it just doesn't feel right, it feels like me and this girl were turly meant to be together and evedrything else is just purely wrong (this is 6 months after seperation). What the fuck would you guys do if you were me? and yes I've slept with other chicks, I've attempted to date others, it just doesn't work. Man fuck me and my drujnk ass posting life stories of depression, whatever the deed is done, help a brotha out.
Oh ya, and luis, I was talking to zekey on aim tonight. I yelled about you putting together a space shooter agme because I've always wanted to, but I feel I Can't with the HAWT competition your bringing in with this new game, so I'll set that goal on hold until yours is up and online and sexy and done with. bah, I'm done ranting about everything that is rantable to my entoxiated mind. peace out.
I r drunk, I loves you all.