Guys... I'm crying right now... I'm going away, but I'm coming back. Need to think.
I've been proposed today.
To marry!
It's been emotional like fucking hell.
Today, the ban on gay marriage has been overturned in California by the CA Supreme Court.
And Leo and I didn't know about it... just so sudden. We were watching TV and we were just plain ol excited, and then he says, "Let's get married."
And I'm like, ohhhhh shit. And I told him that I gotta think about it...
Shit, we've only known each other for weeks only. Minimum in my books to marry someone-- 9 + years. Okay, he's a good guy. But it's seems too rapid to marry. But I do want to get married, but I stoped my impulse and played cool-cat and said, "Got to think."
And, yes... I am. Waaay to soon.
So much entanglement in my heart. I mean, I barely broke up with Agustin sometime last winter. And the truth is... I hoped that I would have married him one day, but what good is it to marry a cheater? But still...
And if I do get married. I want to marry.
In a church. In front of God. Don't know if God exists, but if there is... I want his or her blessings, even if I have to wrestle for them like Jacob.
Metropolitan Community Church. They're good people. I wonder if they'll marry someone who's been an Atheist as long as I have been? I want to do it in San Jose, if possible. There's one close to a Mormon Church near by San Jose State. But, if not... then maybe San Francisco.
But I'm jumping wayyyyy ahead of myself.
Need to decide yes or no.
But, nonetheless... I'm still happy, folks. I mean, to even get to that step in my life... just wow.
You're fabulous darlings...
I'm thinking about going to the mall before I go to sleep before I got to work. If I decide... I will definetly tell Leo today at work. And I will let you guys know in the morning or aternoon tomorrow.