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I have a confession to make.

I...
like that game Second Life.

It's strange. Naked midgets, people floating in mid air, gremlins, Linux Penguins walking around, cardboard boxes going through walls.

It's what I imagine an acid trip to be like, only with more lag and chat.

Frankly, I don't see why anybody would spend real money on this place. But, at the same time, you don't have to spend any money whatsoever for hours and hours of entertainment.

It's like watching a prima ballerina get crushed under a collapsing building--there's a certain beauty to it, while there's enough disaster to keep you enthralled.

mm 12 hour work day. my favorite.

on Wednesday morning I got a call from my dad not 20 minutes before I set my alarm to get up for work and he basically explained that Grandpa is CTD (circling the drain). So, I took the day off, slept in late and got ready nice and easy. (I had just had my two days off on Monday and Tuesday).

My cousin, a marine, flew to detroit from Japan (where he was stationed) picked up his sister and wife and drove the 600 mile trek here.

Grandpa did OK on Wednesday and I guess the day prior they had taken out his breathing tube and he was talking and joking and doing really well until the evening, where he crashed quickly. He had a couple of heart attacks and was not doing so hot. The next day (Wednesday) he was doing better again and had spoken to the priest and seen his grandchildren and own children.

He had a pad of paper that he was writing messages to my father and his siblings.
"Find Denise" (his daughter, who was right next to him, but he was confused because he couldn't see her)
and some others like "sounds like Chuck!" (I guess the doctor's voice sounded like his brother-in-law, Chuck)
and then he asked my dad "Am I close to death?"

later in the day he wrote "I'm ready, God"

I guess at first when everything was happening he was scared and saying he didn't wish to die (Because who does, really?[other than onneryscottsman]) and after having his last rites given to him by the priest (third time in a month) he became accepting.

He doesn't want to be hooked up to machines, and even if he does improve drastically again, they fear his body is riddled with cancer anyway, which explains why his organs are shutting down seemingly for no reason.

I don't know how I feel. Clearly, my aunts, uncle and father are extremely upset. Heather is more upset than I am. I feel bad for my grandfather... I would not like to go like that. How can you sit there, with a full mind and a tube in your mouth knowing that you have less than a week to live? You can't articulate what you want to say other than scribbling a few words (nearly illegibly) on a piece of paper?

He watched his wife die of cancer, and "cancer" has come up many times in the last month since he first went to the hospital and he had to "pull the plug" on her. Just this past christmas his wife's charished lap dog died of dog-cancer and was also hooked up to machines and again he was left to make the call. and now, here he is, fully aware in the same position.

I was going to visit today but I guess because of the cocktail of medications and the stress he is going through, my father told me I best not because grandpa was acting a little nuts, hallucinating and such.

so today and tomorrow I'm making up the time that I missed on wednesday, working 12 hour shifts at the store and our outpost.

I feel bad as well because I was making plans to visit Evark and Muyburrito while they are having a family get-away close to where I live...But I don't think even if things cool down I'll even be mentally able to go an hour to a county fair and meet strangers from the internet.

Mal, there's nothing to say except that we're all still here to support you.

Mal, if I'm sitting here in tears reading that, I can't imagine how tough it is for you right now.

My prayers are with you and your whole family.

At 8/3/07 11:36 PM, stafffighter wrote: Mal, there's nothing to say except that we're all still here to support you.

And I appreciate it. I'm sorry every time I pop in its to report on my grandfather, but I don't much like blogging and I don't think everyone looking at my NG page to have to get depressed by my grandfather scribbling "i'm ready god"

but, as I said, I'm unsure as to my feelings! It's horrible to watch my grandfather die in a hospital far from his home, while he came out for a quick visit to be there for his granddaughter's highschool graduation and his grandson's 20th birthday. He has always insisted that we not make a fuss for him or about him, and my father hasn't been to work in a month and we're there at least every couple of days at the hospital to poke in and say "hi" and I havn't shed a single goddamn tear. I feel like I should be balling.

I understood my grandmother passing, she had been gone for quite some time it was only a matter of time and at least she went peacefully in her sleep. but my grandfather is abruptly in the hospital and hooked up to all kinds of machines in the ICU and every few minutes one of the machines beeps abd bops and a nurse comes in and moves people around the room to get at equipment. He has more pain meds hooked up to his veins than I've ever seen.

We know it wont be very long, that he probably will die in the same bed he's been in for the last 2 weeks, but he's accepted his fate, he's collected and just trying to tie up all his loose ends and for some reason that keeps me from being sad about it all. He's old, 81 (his 81st burthday was July 31st. his first trip to the hospital in June I gave him a fathers day card and handed him a birthday card in the envelope and told me not to open it until his birthday and he said "i wont make it till then." but he did. and he's chugging.) he's lived a great life (he could go on for great lengths of time about how he was almost on track to be an astronaut) he worked as a very well respected safety engineer for Ford for many years, finding his career later in life (in his late 30s) and raised some pretty accomplished children, even managed to watch his grandchildren grow into adults (all of us, except one, are are out of highschool now). and he has a 6 year old great-grandchild.

Bah, I'm rambling on and on about such a distressing matter when I'm barely distressed to tell the truth. Sometimes though, I'll admit, when I'm waiting on the side of a river in the middle of no where to pick up a client, and the right song is playing on the car radio I left on (never the same either..) I almost become overwhelmingly sad, where my eyes start to well up but that's as far as it goes. and its times like that which remind me that I'm still not a completely heartless freak..though I hear they have medications for that now, so with hope...

why do "gangsters" think that "pratt, pratt" is the sound a gun makes? and why do they think it sounds threatening?

Don't worry about how you're "supposed" to be feeling. Whatever emotions you currently have is exactly what you're supposed to be feeling. Everyone experiences loss differently. I lost a close friend (close as in childhood, school, baseball, etc, whole 9 yards) a year ago, and to this day haven't cried over him. People experience loss in different ways; maybe writing on NG is helping, I dunno....

Best of luck for you and your family
For what it's worth,
Impy

PS. Check your PM box later tonight (writing it now).

If there are words which can protect us from the pains we suffer in life, I don't have them. I can only offer you my support and sympathy, Mal.

At 8/3/07 05:44 PM, Der-Lowe wrote: Well, you don't know it, it's called El Cronista Comercial, a libertarian newspaper. It really frustrates me because he criticizes in a very good way, unlike Ámbito Financiero, which is rather childish, too direct.

Laff. That newspaper's for old people. Or so it seems.

I read newspapers for old people too, but the only one that I actually look forward to read is The Clinic. I've always wondered if there's something quite like it in other countries. I mean, it's the only medium (public or otherwise) that can make a torture joke and get away with it. It guises itself as just another "irreverent", "politically incorrect" outlet, just like South Park or The Onion or whatever, but I'd say that 9 of the 10 most important landmarks of national journalism in the last decade have come from The Clinic. They've unmasked former torturers, shed light in a child porn political conspiracy, investigated about Allende's unborn heir, etc.
Working in there is the ultimate wet dream for any journalism student.

At 8/3/07 09:39 PM, Der-Lowe wrote: There was a chilean version, but the show's base is its Argentinian host, Pettinato, so it wasn't successful.

I remember that. The show was ok, but the host was trying way too hard to be Argentinian. Apparently, they didn't learn their lesson from when they adapted CQC: Fake Argentinian acent and mannerisms = lame. That being said, genuine Argentinian accent and mannerisms = lame too, but a little less. CQC Chile slowly started to evolve into a decent show ever since the hosts gradually came to notice that they were, in fact, Chilean. Hueón.

I'm not a fan of soap operas, but I like the other shows you mentioned. Like you, I don't watch much TV, I watch Duro de domar, CQC, TVr... sometimes the news...

I don't watch much TV either. Chilean TV is the spawn of Satan and the relentless punishment from a spiteful God towards the nation he hates the most. We're like the anti-jews. Still, a couple of shows from a cable station are pretty good, namely Cadena Nacional and Canal Copano, even though Canal Copano is the nerdiest thing in existence and I hate both Copanos to death.
I frequently watch Scrubs, House, Family Guy, The Simpsons, Nip Tuck. Lately I've become addicted to that god-awful teen drama, The OC. I know it's for angsty, spoiled emo kids, but it's got a funny Jew.

At 8/3/07 10:40 PM, fli wrote: A young low class girl gets into an upper class school, and she's picked by these bullies who happen to the 4 richest boys of the school.
When she fights back, they some how fall in love with her ferocity and so there's a lover's triangle...

So... it's kind of like a Venezuelan soap opera with blue hair and schoolgirl uniforms and tentacle rape and oversized eyes and shit?

At 8/3/07 11:16 PM, IllustriousPotentate wrote: It's like watching a prima ballerina get crushed under a collapsing building--there's a certain beauty to it, while there's enough disaster to keep you enthralled.

I must ask you... is that you, in the furry avatar? are you a furry? Because, if you haven't noticed, furry is the new gay. Out yourself as a furry and you're not getting mocked, you're getting dragged into the street, disowned, branded like cattle and left to die in the countryside.

At 8/4/07 04:35 AM, Empanado wrote:

At 8/3/07 11:16 PM, IllustriousPotentate wrote: It's like watching a prima ballerina get crushed under a collapsing building--there's a certain beauty to it, while there's enough disaster to keep you enthralled.

I must ask you... is that you, in the furry avatar? are you a furry? Because, if you haven't noticed, furry is the new gay. Out yourself as a furry and you're not getting mocked, you're getting dragged into the street, disowned, branded like cattle and left to die in the countryside.

I must confess...

No, not really.

You can get all types of avatars. I started using this one--it was free, and looks a whole lot better that the generic human characters everyone else has--which comes in handy when you're trying to see yourself in a laggy crowd of weirdos.

Plus, you can get more people to talk to you, so that you can teleport them off to some distant place or play incredibly annoying sounds at them, or other tricks.

I've never really understood furdom, but you have to admit, it's nowhere near as ridiculous as people wandering around with spears protruding from their heads or dancing midgets with enormous and superfluous "parts" . And especially not the Spongebob Guy. I'll never watch that show again.

It's like the General forum, only in MMORPG form.

lol, yiff

At 8/4/07 04:35 AM, Empanado wrote: Laff. That newspaper's for old people. Or so it seems.

Well, it's a rightist newspaper, so I think it is. People who work in the city also read it.

I read newspapers for old people too, but the only one that I actually look forward to read is The Clinic. I've always wondered if there's something quite like it in other countries. I mean, it's the only medium (public or otherwise) that can make a torture joke and get away with it. It guises itself as just another "irreverent", "politically incorrect" outlet, just like South Park or The Onion or whatever, but I'd say that 9 of the 10 most important landmarks of national journalism in the last decade have come from The Clinic. They've unmasked former torturers, shed light in a child porn political conspiracy, investigated about Allende's unborn heir, etc.
Working in there is the ultimate wet dream for any journalism student.

We have Revista Barcelona.They joke about the most politically incorrect things, too: torture, death of the president, the death of a teacher at a demonstration, racist jokes, etc.
But it is just a joke newspaper, it has no investigations whatsoever, maybe because there are lots of programs in tv that already do that.

At 8/3/07 09:39 PM, Der-Lowe wrote: There was a chilean version, but the show's base is its Argentinian host, Pettinato, so it wasn't successful.

I remember that. The show was ok, but the host was trying way too hard to be Argentinian. Apparently, they didn't learn their lesson from when they adapted CQC: Fake Argentinian acent and mannerisms = lame. That being said, genuine Argentinian accent and mannerisms = lame too, but a little less. CQC Chile slowly started to evolve into a decent show ever since the hosts gradually came to notice that they were, in fact, Chilean. Hueón.

CQC is in several countries now, I like the Spanish version best.
I've heard that there's also a Chilean version of Married with Children, we have one as well, and our own version of the Nanny.

I'm not a fan of soap operas, but I like the other shows you mentioned. Like you, I don't watch much TV, I watch Duro de domar, CQC, TVr... sometimes the news...

I don't watch much TV either. Chilean TV is the spawn of Satan and the relentless punishment from a spiteful God towards the nation he hates the most.

Tv is bad in general, we've got (still) Big Brother, and women stripping in the prime time.

We're like the anti-jews. Still, a couple of shows from a cable station are pretty good, namely Cadena Nacional and Canal Copano, even though Canal Copano is the nerdiest thing in existence and I hate both Copanos to death.

What are those channels about?

I frequently watch Scrubs, House, Family Guy, The Simpsons, Nip Tuck. Lately I've become addicted to that god-awful teen drama, The OC. I know it's for angsty, spoiled emo kids, but it's got a funny Jew.

I like those shows, but I forget to watch them regularly, so I lose the plot, and I can't understand. That's why I like shows like CQC, and CSI.

<<<<<<MAL>>>>>>

All it takes is reading the right pages of the lounge to let you know how many of us have been there.

I tried to go see Live Free or Die Hard last night...apparently the showing just before ours resulted in the destruction of the print, so we got a refund and left. I wanted my adrenaline-fueled thrill ride! But I got raspberry cheesecake, and we got out of the house for a little while, so I guess it wasn't a total bust.

And Mal, this puppy brought you a leaf to make you feel better. Look at his cute little face and forget your troubles.

Well, my sister just arrived today for her week long visit. My dad had to drive to Wisconsin to get her (she lives in MI with my stepmom, now divorced from my father) and she got here around 5:00. I'm not too excited, she can be a MAJOR pain in the ass. But it is nice to see her once in a while.

She also brought the last Harry Potter book (which I'm sure she'll never finish; she's nine). I've only read the first hundred pages or so and it has been riveting.

Spent today in town with a friend and had to endure standing around while he got a haircut and bought over a hundred dollars of new clothes. Damn my desire to save for a drum set! Ok, not really.

There was a big forest fire a couple of miles from my house today, me and my friend saw the smoke from 15 miles away when we were in town, and could tell it was right by our houses (he lives across the street on the shores of Lake Michigan), so we were kinda nervous, especially when the cops were stopping everyone at the turnoff from US 2 to our county road and told us it was being pushed our way by the wind. The fire fighters brought in helicopters and stuff to put it out, so I think it's almost gone by now. Luckily there was only a light breeze.

Another month left until school starts, I'm just about at that point in the summer where I'm ready to go back. Around here theres nothing to do if you don't have a car to go into town, or even to your friends houses which are scattered all over. We are definately in the woods up here.

Riding around town today I am looking forward to having my own car, a job and money. I just need independance from my father in some way; he is too controlling. Ah well, soon.

;

wow, it seems i posted something comical at an innappropriate time.

At 8/4/07 08:26 PM, SolInvictus wrote: wow, it seems i posted something comical at an innappropriate time.

Could have been worse.

Could have been Penis.

Oh shit....

I don't have much to say Mal, I for one am not an individual that likes to get involved with emoitions, nor with someone else's and usually just avoid the subject completely. But were here for you in a symbolic way.

P.S. Okay maybe I did have something to say.

At 8/4/07 08:45 PM, MortifiedPenguins wrote: But were here for you in a symbolic way.

As opposed to in a literal HELPFUL way?

I've never seen what good saying "We're here for you man" does.

If I have problems, I don't post them here, because no one really gives a shit. (No insinuation to Malachy's case right now!)

;

At 8/4/07 09:10 PM, reviewer-general wrote:

As opposed to in a literal HELPFUL way?

None of us are there to offer crying shoulders.

I've never seen what good saying "We're here for you man" does.

In times of loss one can feel afraid and alone. Having the support of others reminds you you're not and chases the monsters away much like your dad being in the room kept the boogyman away. We're mortal and weaknesses come with that. Deal with it.

If I have problems, I don't post them here, because no one really gives a shit. (No insinuation to Malachy's case right now!)

Possibly the worst use of an exclamation point I've seen. I can assure you this, anyone with a drop of sympathy in them does give a shit. If that dosen't include you, then ok.

At 8/4/07 09:15 PM, stafffighter wrote: Possibly the worst use of an exclamation point I've seen. I can assure you this, anyone with a drop of sympathy in them does give a shit. If that dosen't include you, then ok.

Actually I was trying to indicate my adamance to the extent that people DO give a shit in this case. I'm really sorry how that came across.

Also, I was simply stating my opinion that saying things like "We;re here for you" don't help the way they are believed to. Deal with it . I truly feel sorry for the situation he is in, having been there myself recently, yet I doubt that if I made a hollow gesture of support it would help him. If something happens to someone and all I can do is say: "Umm, sorry?" I'm not going to disrespect them in that way, because that's not all I could do.

;

Don't worry. I'm not trying to sap the lounge of attention and I'm actually really sorry that any of you fretted over me and my emotional wellbeing.

I was picking up some costumers this morning around 10 and my phone rang (it was my dad's ring tone...) and I pushed him to voicemail.

I didn't listen all day knowing exactly what the message would contain, that grandpa had passed away in the night with his children around him and he was in no more pain.

instead dad said that he is doing remarkably well and that they were considering moving him out of ICU. He's talking and coherent and on the upswing.

Either way, thanks you guys for your creepily sincere remarks and PMs.

BTW, another 12 hour day.

At 8/4/07 09:57 PM, Malachy wrote: creepily sincere

That sounds like NG :)

BTW, another 12 hour day.

Ugh, working.

At 8/4/07 09:57 PM, Malachy wrote: Either way, thanks you guys for your creepily sincere remarks and PMs.

All I did was post a puppy, I'm not creepy, right?

You know environmentalism has gone mentalist when you know somebody that uses Blackle, saying it saves electricity that a white background would use (yet forgets to mention that it offers a greatly reduced service - no image search, for example).

And, personally, I'd rather use GoldenRoddle.

I am sick and tired of these muthafuckin' windows exxin' out of my muthafuckin' browser!!! GAHHH!!!

If it's not gremlin's keeping me from getting online for a few days, it's gremlins keeping me from posting on newgrounds. Now that I've actually used my Lansky kit to sharpen up a few knives, I'm tempted to go by an axe to sharpen up and keep by my comp in case I see Gizmo and his buddies running around.

... but I did manage to read about Mal and his grandfather. I can onl offer my condolences, and say; look on the bright side, and least you don't have four sets of grandparents to go through this with. Oi vey...

Proteas.

In all your infinite wisdom and godliness, I want you. Yes you, to make me a madness sig.

One that continues the lyrics in your sig.

But I did not shoot the deptuy.

At 8/5/07 04:17 PM, MortifiedPenguins wrote: But I did not shoot the deptuy.

... okay. I think this is the first time someone's ever requested I make a sig for them.

Any particulars? (Look of the character, weapon, blood spatter?)

A little bit more crowded than I would have liked, but, meh.

At 8/5/07 05:09 PM, Proteas wrote: A little bit more crowded than I would have liked, but, meh.

If Seven haden't just made me a perfect punisher one I'd ask for one of the guy with an axe saying .....in self defence

But I have this perfect one from seven that I'm keeping so someone else can have that idea

At 8/5/07 06:19 PM, stafffighter wrote: .....in self defence

It's a shame the game doesn't have it built in to put blood spatters on melee weapons.

At 8/5/07 02:44 PM, Proteas wrote: ... but I did manage to read about Mal and his grandfather. I can onl offer my condolences, and say; look on the bright side, and least you don't have four sets of grandparents to go through this with. Oi vey...

Only because I went through it first with my grandmother (my currently ill grandfather's wife) in 1999, my maternal grandmother who suffered from Alzheimer's and died two weeks ago, and currently with my grandfather now.

So yes, so far I've only got 2 left to go, and working on one of them.

thanks.

(that was so angry and sarcastic...Its more from a long day than bitterness about grandparents)