Have you ever had a feeling of loyalty to this site, in a manner of speaking?
I've always considered NG to be my home, in a way. Mostly because although I have no strong emotional ties to anything else. I mean, I'm not obsessed with the site. I don't depend on it totally.
I don't think I've ever felt a sense of camaraderie with my closest friends, ever.
I don't belong in any social cliques. I just kind of lurk amongst everyone, as a buddy, and a weirdo pal, yet I've never really liked them. All I see in them are stupid idiots.
I've felt very isolated, and that is why I turned to Newgrounds in the first place. I already had an account, but I really wanted a place to belong. When I discovered the forums, it seemed like the ideal place to interact. However, I did not develop a real attachment to NG until I reached around my 2,500th post.
I came to realize that the people I interact with here almost everyday have more in common with me than with my academically and intellectually inept classmates.
I realized that I have more opportunities to engage in a wholesome discussion here than at my school, even if every other thread is about penises. Now THAT's sad.
I realize people will probably call me a geek and a person with no life, but I usually shrug such comments off, as they are meaningless and irrelevant.
I want to contribute to Newgrounds. I love Newgrounds. And no, this isn't some melodramatic bullshit- NG has been the only community I've ever felt that I was a part of. I am devoted to this site. Of course, I wouldn't readily take a bullet for Wade, but I would definitely make an effort to contribute if I could.
When I am on NG, I am content. I am calm and serene. I can express my thoughts in the most efficient manner concieved- via keyboard. When I am not, I am in chaos. My thoughts are barely coherent. Newgrounds is the nexus of my existence.
Of course, I have real-world goals as well. I want to go to college. I want to get a Ph.D, get a good job. However, only a place like NG could ever really make me feel complete.
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And no, I'm not kidding.
I know most of the regulars here know me by now. I expect that I've been a bit of a jackass lately. And I apologize for that. I'm sorry.
I don't want to alienate my friends because of my momentary immaturity.
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Of course, to all those people with TLDR's in their posts:
FUCK YOU. I HOPE YOU ROT IN HELL. THE ONE TIME I MAKE THE EFFORT TO NOT BE A TOTAL ASSHOLE, I HAVE IT RUINED BY YOU,, THE PERSON WHO DIDN'T EVEN BOTHER TO SHOW A LITTLE CONSIDERATION AND READ THE FUCKING THING.
FUCK.
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Okay, I think I got that out of my system.