This topic contains no links to child pornography, and no pictures will be posted. This is just a discussion.
I love porn, so I go through a lot of porn in my day, in an endless journey to get off. Occasionally, I'll see advertisements for preteen models, but I normally ignore them. I clicked one a long time ago, and was taken to a wide arrange of portfolios and other shit, all of them preteen and modeling clothing.
Now, I don't find preteen models all that exciting, flat-chested, deformed faces, etc. However, I am young myself, so I naturally have the urge to want to see girls my age, or girls no more than 4 years from my age naked/scantly clothed. So I clicked one a few days ago.
She was a cute girl, not more than a two or three years from my own age. I couldn't help but feel wrong looking at her pictures, though. It was a perfectly legal site, no nudity was the main concern, and no posing in a sexual manor. Even so, I just couldn't help but feel wrong for smacking to an underage girl, even if she is around my age, and it's the natural thing to do.
I downloaded some of her portfolios from a shitty torrent site, to make sure there was nothing illegal going on, to protect my own ass. They were very careful when taking pictures of her, not a bit of nudity. The problem is, she poses in underwear in some galleries, nothing sexual, no thongs or g-strings and shit, just underwear, but I can't help but feel like what I'm doing is wrong.
I don't understand, I'm only 16, it's not like I'm some deranged 35-year-old pedophile sitting in his desk chair jacking off to Jamie Spears or something. Why do I feel so worried and guilty? :/
Have I been looking at child porn, or is what I just described nothing but harmless modeling?