I see quite a bit has gone on here since I've left. I also would like to apologize for my frequent absenses and I am apologizing in advance for the reason why I will not be here as much, or at least from how I view it, from this day forward until things are better.
Phantom, I apologize to you in advance because I didn't send you a PM regarding the issue, but I've always thought of this place as my "e-family" and I want to let everyone at once know what is going on. So, here goes:
Just today I found out that my father may have cancer, which is fairly upsetting to me because I look up to him so much, and he is the only man in this world who I can actually call my dad. He isn't my biological father because my biological father died when I was in high school, and I never knew him personally - therefore I'll never call or refer to him as my "dad." This man has done so much for me in my life that it's incredible...I wish I could just tell everyone in the world. I'm sorry if some of this doesnt make sense, but I'm sitting here crying as I type this.
The fact of the matter is...I love him so much, and I really don't want to lose him. he's the greatest thing to ever happen to me and my family. I'm incredibly hurt lately, and really i just dont know what to do.
Some of you may be wondering why i'm telling you, but its because i respect all of you and i can actually find newgrounds a place to talk to people. i honestly dont care if you dont give a shit, but i appreciate it for anyone who is listening because this almost seems unrealistic at times. we never imagine our parents getting sick and what we would go through. we only think about it for a couple seconds at a time before we realize it isnt the present....it hasnt even happened yet. now it's really happening to me and i almost dont believe it. i wish there was something i could do for him...he really is everything to me.
in regards to my leadership position here...i dont care what you do with it. i dont know when ill be back or if i am how often ill post...all i ask is that corky keeps depositing for me...and thanks to anyone who listens or understands.
good luck you guys...