Ok, heres the deal. First, I knew madelyn for a lon long time. She was juss one of my bitches the first time i dated her. But afterI lost her i relized what I lost and now that i got her back, i dont want to loose her again.
I know she knows what love is cause in the past few weeks she has been whilling to make sacrafices for me. Im not talking about sexual sacrafices, but juss Big sacrafices all for love. she was even whilling to her life. and its not all me, me, me, me, me. I've made big sacrafices too, for her.
I used to be a HUGE player. if you talk to a chic in south jersey, most likey she knows me and i messed with her.
I once had 23 girlfriends all at the same time and half of them knew about each other and didnt want to break up with me cause of love. If u dont believe me, u can check into this. My myspace link is in my NG profile and if u read the comments, I have women fighting over me on there. I could have had any chic i wanted. i had endless girls. different pussy ever night and im lucky i didnt catch nothing yet. i had it all...
But i gave it all away. For her.
I dont think i ever knew what love realy was. But I do know that I never cared for a chic like this befor. I love her. I know its the real thing. Its not puupy love.
This chic, I can accualy visualize her and I being together for our entire lives an making a family together and what not.
Oh, and the sex thing, Im not trapping her or pressuring her or nothing. It was her idea accualy and she wants too. Im not forcing her or nothing.
I know what love is and this is love. Ok, i experienced just about everything i possibly can in relationships except for true love. This is my first time with that one. I experienced puppylove befor(when i was like 12), I have experienced lust befor too. This one is different. And how i know that is that I havent cried since i was 6 and my parents divorced. But when i almost lost her in those 3 weeks, i couldnt help but stare at her picture. In her beautiful eyes and at her cute smile. And tears ran down my face.
And damn, im suppossed to be a man and not ever cry. Im suppossed to be this hard, tough dude that been locked up for a few years and dont have any emotions for girls and suppossably usses them and throws them away like a paper towel but here i am crying for the first time in 11 years, over a chic. Here I am soo depressed that i want to take my CZ85 9mm and blow my brains out once i know for sure that i lost her for a secound time. Thats love. Thats what love realy is.