Sorry for double posting, but I just found out something.
My mom died. She was 46.
Don't ask why I'm on here, or even why I posted this in the EGB thread, just thought I should, I dunno what else to do at the moment.
Obviously I'm pretty upset, but I'm not that sad really. We weren't that close. She has had a really bad alcohol addiction for years now, so bad she moved out 2 years ago on a court order. I hadn't spoken to her in a few weeks either. To be honest, I saw this coming for a while, the way she drank, no one could keep it up. Eventually it caught up with her.
The timing is pretty awful. Tomorrow I gotta enroll and register in college, so whether I like it or not I have to go out there for 5-6 hours to meet my faculty adviser, get my class timetable, and all that. Plus my little brother only started secondary school last week. I'm more upset by worrying how it'll affect him than by the death itself, weird as it may sound.
In case you are worried for me, don't be, I'll be alright. In another way it's kinda good to have closure. My dad and everyone else has spend the last decade trying to help her, but at the end of the day she didn't wanna be helped.
Thanks for reading guys, (and sorry if I've brought you down at all).