Well that's the end of that. Friday was really uneasy with my girlfriend after what she was putting on Tumblr but the party last Saturday at least had things went accordingly. However, Sunday was when enough was enough. After one text telling me that she was cutting herself, I had no choice but to contact her parents about what she was doing. I knew fully aware of the consequences that would have come from this and I was right knowing that the relationship was put to an end right there. While she still wants to be friends with me, it's not going to be a piece of cake to approach each other. Trust between us has been damaged as a result but it was either this or fuck knows how much worse she would have been if I left her on her own. Nothing I said would have got to her, nothing from her friends would have got to her so it was all down to her parents.
Perhaps it was only a matter of time for the break up to have happened. I've not been happy over the last three weeks and as time went on things only got worse and worse for her. I tried giving her a break hoping that it would help her recover from things but it didn't seem to make a difference. As much as I tried to face the difficulties of a relationship, there's only so much that I can take from it. A relationship is meant to make me happy and having her not seeing me on dates for a few weeks whilst she was getting worse on her end was not making things easy to deal with and what she told me last night was the last straw. I know there are long distance relationships but the difference here is that we were within close-ish distances but there were no plans for further dates to see each other out. In a long distance relationship you'd be looking up at when would be the next time to see each other.
For now, it's back to single life for me and I didn't want to see it return ever again but this is what I'm stuck with and will have to deal with. I can't say for sure when I'll be in a relationship again but if it took this long in my life to get a girlfriend, chances are it will be a while (I'll say years) before I find someone else so the one plus side is that I can take it easy on myself to get over from recent events. The odds of another girl asking me out over the next week or two is so slim that it would feel like winning the lottery if that actually happened. Sometime I will make the effort again to try and find someone but now is too soon. If there's the possibility that she wants to be with me again, I'm not entirely sure about second chances so we'd have to talk things over first. For now she's best staying off relatonships until she can make a complete turnaround on her life.
Helloween - Pink Bubbles Go Ape
At 3/16/13 10:04 AM, Coop wrote:
At 3/9/13 07:39 PM, Bahamut wrote:
I've been able to see her today. Although things may be getting more and more intense right now, we were able to enjoy seeing each other. Plenty of hugs were given so we're still close to each other. I've spoken to a few friends today and they feel that I have done what I can to help her out but perhaps I shouldn't pressure myself to respond to her to every little thing she says on Twitter, Facebook, etc. However, for now it's a matter of giving her space and give her time to recover which I have agreed to do starting from earlier this week.Try not to rush in. You can seem over the top and clingy if you do.
Well I tried to give her time but nothing was made any easier for us.
At 3/10/13 10:47 AM, Bahamut wrote:
Nice job! Just wait until a time when we're both level 60. Still a few years off but we're gonna be there before we know it. For now, 25 days until my next level up.I've got to still be here for that to happen. I'm hoping that I can maintain my presence, even as limited as it currently is :(
It's hard to see where I'll be going over the next two years so getting to level 60 shouldn't be an issue. However, maintaining activity for everything on the site is a different matter. I can do everything as normal for the time being but somewhere down the road, it's likely that you'll see less of me but again, that's all a matter of what goes in my life.
At 3/16/13 12:57 PM, Metal-Therapy wrote:
At 3/16/13 07:06 AM, Bahamut wrote:
I've earned myself 140,000 total points. While I should be happy of these big milestones lately, life has become more and more hectic. Who knows what will happen tonight?This whole relationship business can be a bit of a roller coaster ride, eh? Just hang on for the ride, man! :P
I did hang on but the ride ended up crashing. :P
At 3/17/13 02:38 PM, Haggard wrote:
At 3/14/13 10:53 AM, Bahamut wrote:
They were actually willing to cut the monthly payment I owe them due to seeing my girlfriend but that was just around the same time we agreed on a break. Funny timing that. :PI'm starting a full-time and full payment job tomorrow. The company I worked at before that never made a job offer, even though they badly need more employees. But I waited since December, I even spoke to the management about it, but all I heard was "no decision yet". So fuck them, seriously. I worked FULL TIME for 500 Euros pre-tax per month and they cannot even tell me if that position is vacant or not? I mean, even a "No, sorry" would've been helpful...
That's the thing. These employers are so unreliable with communications. They might have many to speak to but they should at least make an attempt to speak to them all if they put them through enough trouble to go somewhere just to see them.
Ah but for now she's seeing me as a friend. That surely makes her less biased.It does, but she knows you in person, I don't.
Now she isn't biased at all. :P
We'll find a place to go to in Germany eventually. Maybe have it coincide with a live show as Germany gets shit tons of things happening.Well, then you have to come to Hamburg. We get a lot of live shows here. The Markthalle was kind of my second home about a decade back, haha.
Yeah, I keep hearing of a lot of live shows in Hamburg. That's why it's one place to consider going if I were to go on holiday to Germany.
At 3/17/13 06:49 PM, Auz wrote:
At 3/13/13 10:36 AM, Bahamut wrote:
30,000 posts...Come on, that's pretty epic!
You're like the what? 7th NG'er to ever get there?
When life gives you difficult situations, stats on a website isn't really the ideal thing to make you happy. I know I should be happy with the recent milestones but at the end of the day, Newgrounds isn't the most important thing in the world. I'm the 8th person to reach 30k posts and sure, so little have actually reached this but again, my IRL circumstances haven't been great. As a result of getting 30k posts, though, I now have FOUR stats with 30k+ and I'm the first of that kind to do that. It'll be ages before you even see anyone else with four 30k stats